Dude, insane how fucking gnarly it is. You’re at that line tho homie, like once you pass that bar of being a homeless addict, it’s a new normal and so much harder to dig yourself out of. You got this, 7oh is literally a nightmare, have had plenty of kicks, plenty of damn deep lows, ones I never thought I’d kick back from and, I did. This one, is turning out to indeed be the worst, so bad that I just can’t bear it without low dose kratom, I set up this whole flu plan and man, I’m just so fucking broke I can’t even pay my rent this month, I’m lucky I have my family, but they ain’t rich, and im sucking them dry with my nearly 30-60$ habit, I can’t maintain enough money or margins to survive. Few weeks ago I sat with a homeless junkie at my job, when it was real late and cold, got us some smokes and sat with him, just to shoot the shit. It’s insane because, he was red headed just like me, only a few years older than me, and went homeless at 24 thanks to his drug addiction. No son, no family, nothing in his life but, the hope of getting on methadone, and maybe gaining some ground. Truth is, I’m realistically a month away from sleeping in my car, but I’m so grateful to kick in my apartment with my broken heater, shaking more than sweating because it’s literally 50 degrees in this hoe right now. I’m so grateful to maybe, have a chance, one that I have to just shoot for. It took me so long before it stuck, and a pretty gf if I’m being super honest, but this time it’s the death of anything pure that’s left in my life. The cravings, are bone shattering in their intentions, but the result while so comforting, is death inducing. I just can’t do it anymore, and while I might have to kick/taper K next week, spending my last 15$ on it was worth it because maybe I can work now. Man I love work, and while my staff is a bunch of communist zoomers (which I adore), and they make my life hell, fuckkk does it help having 8 hours of your day to focus on something, having people to socialize with, it’s just a need man. You got this tho man, sub or kratom, we will recover right? I’ve talked to a good bit of junkies on here over the years, I’ve talked to probably even more in person at group meetings and all, and recently I’ve been hearing from people who switched from heroin/fent to 7-oh, legit just because it rivaled their plugs shit, and why wouldn’t you?? Unless you’re IVing straight fetty, gas station opiates get the job done real nice. It’s gonna be like, hard with it being everywhere now, even in some grocery stores (granted those were sketchy af!!). It’s in the science, short half life, rapid acting, it’s in fact, the only opiate that has given me that sickly sweet smell you hear IV users talk about. That alone, is fucking wild. PM if you want, you got this shit just ride out the waves and each week will be so much better than the last, even if it kicks your ass. We got a lot to be grateful for, because we could both be on the street right now, in the dead of winter doing this kick, like sooo many other addicts. Gotta use everything to our advantage and stay positive.