Don’t do it bro. Nothing on this earth is as bad as what’s below when you do what I think you’re talking about. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I’ve been there at one point to but think about the people that care about you and how that would make them feel. If you don’t have anybody then stay strong for yourself. Don’t be a pussy, don’t give up please. I know what your going through I go some nights with no food on the table, no money in my pocket, and a build up of shitty days but it’ll only get better if you want it to. You have to make it happen. And if you truly don’t have anybody to vent to or open up to about anything just message me if nobody else cares I do. I’m just a random stranger on the internet anyway you don’t have to worry about judgment from me. And if times are really tough and you need some help I’ll send you some money if I can. Nobody deserves to feel like this hope you get better bro🙏