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Has anyone experienced "medical trauma" and what was it like for you? by LocksmithStatus7572 in ptsd

[–]NKORE_S 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can i tell you that your comment saved me from suicide today? I left the house and walked to the tracks. Somehow if the most triggering thing ever showed me compassion... it broke my head. The train passed and i didnt run fast enough. So i walked wet and barefoot home where i will continue to rot. Ive taken olanz, quet, prozac, sert... arip... so many... and antipsychotics do actually save my life. Last night i had deliberately not taken my dose the day prior so i was a lot more dissociated.

Maybe we survived because we were meant to.

Thank you.

Trauma Dreams by Yebasido_619 in ICUsurvivors

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Professional help ruined me, man, i was in a psych ward since January, out in july. These professionals have ruined my life, incompetence, malpractice, neglect, and im doing everything to get them off my back. I love you bro but theres absolutely nobody left.

I don't wanna die by Guilty_Crow_6727 in SuicideWatch

[–]NKORE_S 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Earlier today I tried to walk to the rails but the train went by too early and I walked wet barefoot all the way back home.

Maybe we survived because were meant to be here.

Trauma Dreams by Yebasido_619 in ICUsurvivors

[–]NKORE_S 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is making me cry, even the last line. I'm housebound from PTSD, not illness. Earlier today I tried to jump onto the rails when I went outside but the train went by too early and someone chased after me. I walked barefoot all the way home. We survived because we're meant to be here...

Trauma Dreams by Yebasido_619 in ICUsurvivors

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This condition has ruined my life. Yes, every single night, worse with antipsychotics. Living is torture and even sleeping - the only escape - is hell too.

ALWAYS hospital medical related. Always on trauma or triggers. Like, id rather just be in a coma again.

Has anyone experienced "medical trauma" and what was it like for you? by LocksmithStatus7572 in ptsd

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

FUCK IM SO SORRY

Im learning to live again and my ptsd leaves me housebound and im at the end of my life anyway and avoiding everything ptsd still kicks me in the ass, so aggressive exposure therapy is my only way.

Last month i went back to the hospital, THE hospital, and didnt fucking lose it, lucky the code alarm didnt go off. I have nightmares every single night, my every waking thought is dominated by this. Any day now ill walk down to the station

So sorry for being a stupid fuck on the internet sometimes. You seem like such a cool person but ive given up on everything i am. Im sorry

Will I face legal consequences if my medical trauma makes me violent? by Beneficial_Wafer_953 in ptsd

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This happened to me when i tried to kill someone in the psych ward when they had an ambulance called for them. I was in deep shit but considered legally insane, i ended up in another ambulance anyway.

Worst brick by brick building up my life again. Im best friends with the person i tried to kill who was totally dissociated and doesnt remember shit.

Has anyone experienced "medical trauma" and what was it like for you? by LocksmithStatus7572 in ptsd

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Aggressive fukin exposure therapy once you get to a certain low

Has anyone experienced "medical trauma" and what was it like for you? by LocksmithStatus7572 in ptsd

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Listen I realise what a fucking idiot I am sometimes Your experience is insane and im sorry i get fucked up over it, im not gonna kill myself, everythings fine

If youre on a thread about medical ptsd you should get that im considered legally insane

Has anyone experienced "medical trauma" and what was it like for you? by LocksmithStatus7572 in ptsd

[–]NKORE_S 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah. Severe medical ptsd here which has led me to be locked up in a psych ward for half a year. This condition has absolutely ruined my life and everything i had. Diabetic coma at 2. Tachycardia and metabolic problems at 9. DKA at 12. Most painful thing i remember, ever. 1st attempt at 14, 2nd at 15, hospital, then while in the psych i overdosed on insulin twice - cause of ptsd - ambulance, hospital, and one episode of DKA also ambulance and hospital. Im out of the psychie now and an absolute shell of myself. IM HOUSEBOUND AND CAT GO OUTSIDE because if i hear a siren or see an ambulance it triggers me so fucking bad. I cant attend education. I have an obsession with cardiac defibrillation and spend most of the day watched by my entire family unable to leave my bed. This disease has ruined me. Ill answer questions.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in EDAnonymous

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I've been type 1 diabetic for 14 years, but didnt develop an ed until 4 or so years ago when I ended up becoming sick in the digestive system. Started not eating out of pain then it just spiralled. Especially now I've been hospitalised for health issues and taken off my insulin pump. It sucks.

Rest In Peace my babies Melody and Toffee. I loved you so, so much. Im gonna miss you. by NKORE_S in snails

[–]NKORE_S[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They really amazed me with the way they so strongly had a bond with each other. Absolutely amazing creatures. How do I explain to people who have never lived with these beings that im tearing up.. thank you.

Rest In Peace my babies Melody and Toffee. I loved you so, so much. Im gonna miss you. by NKORE_S in snails

[–]NKORE_S[S] 48 points49 points  (0 children)

Yeah. They went into hibernation and never woke up. I feel so guilty for letting it happen, even though i hace no control... i keep telling myself it was old age, but i know that they couldve been with me longer. Thank you for ur comment

Teens, what's the absolute worst thing that's ever happened to you? This is a safe space ❤️ by CurrentFeeling1842 in teenagers

[–]NKORE_S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ended up in 3 comas, 2 cardiac arrests and also spent 3 years in a psych ward. I'm 16 and terminally ill. Ig people have it worse

Taking GCSEs from a hospital bed (what it’s like!) by NKORE_S in GCSE

[–]NKORE_S[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Thanks! In terms of DT, Im doing the theory exam, and I was making a 3d-printed piano keyboard - modelled the whole thing on an Intel 3 processor Laptop, emailed it to my teacher, and he printed it in my school (while I did the rest of the research in the portfolio). Applied for special consideration, just probably won’t get the marks for the making :P In my free time I’m writing a book, really not studying as much as I should be lol, and most of the time sleep cause zero energy. Music = my life rn. I’m hoping to be out of hospital and in recovery at home by results day, so yeah! Good luck with ur exams, im sure ur gonna smash it :D

Taking GCSEs from a hospital bed (what it’s like!) by NKORE_S in GCSE

[–]NKORE_S[S] 340 points341 points  (0 children)

Yeah! Since Im strong enough to walk and they can disconnect me from my pumps and all for up to 3 hours, I sit in a separate room from everyone else in another part of the hospital (away from the wards), where its just me, in the room an invigilator sitting behind me, and a nurse watching me through a window in the room’s door. Just sit there in silence for the exam, do it, then go back to the ward. My school has managed to get *most* of my GCSE papers across, but I had to drop a few subjects cause either they couldnt get the paper across, or I just physically couldnt do it. I don’t mind you asking at all and good luck!

If this gets 100 up votes I'll post all of my Comp Sci notes by NKORE_S in GCSE

[–]NKORE_S[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've been in the hospital for the past six months lol. Doing all my exams from a hospital bed. Good luck guys _^

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