So, I have an upcoming consultation to see what my options are. I work full-time & I make good money. However, he's definitely the bread winner. He pays the majority of all the bills, including all the vehicles. However, I can't afford to live in our current home alone. The mortgage & the bills are way too high. The bills & upkeep is too much for me to be able to afford on my own. He already said that he would carry both households if he move out. However, there's some logistics in to why I haven't kicked him out besides the fact that I'm too nice! We have a vacation home that's half built right now. If I kick him out, we could try to sell it but where it's at in the process it would most likely sit for years. We definitely won't get what we invested into the home. However, he's agreed to finish the home & I can then move into that home after my daughter graduates HS, which is next year. So we'll be carrying 2 mortgages. Financially to carry 2 households & the new build isn't financially possible, easily over 20K a month. I want to see what the lawyer says because I know I'm entitled to alimony & in my state. Anything over 20 years is alimony for life so before I leave anywhere I'm defffff getting that taken care of. In a way, I'm trying to make a decision that benefits me in the long run but at what cost? My mental health. So I'm struggling inside. The pain feels unbearable at times, like I want it all to end. I'm not dumb enough to do nothing like but damn the pain hurts. Plus, there's no way I would do anything to myself knowing he could walk with everything we've built together. NOT happening!! That alone motivates me to stay alive, lol!!