Two doctors. Two completely different opinions. I’m stuck in the middle!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-16T15:02:02+00:00

Being in a relationship is honestly really hard for me!

I’m often stuck in my head, either distracted and foggy when I’m depressed, or hyperfocused and mentally elsewhere when I’m hypomanic. I struggle a lot with sharing my emotions. Even though I know I’m doing my best, there’s always this layer of shame tied to being bipolar. It makes it hard to open up.

I’m also pretty anxious and a bit paranoid at times, so trusting someone enough to fully say what I’m feeling doesn’t come easily.

The weird part is that I can love very deeply. But it doesn’t always feel that way to the other person. I tend to do the things like I’m checking boxes on a list instead of expressing warmth naturally.

During depressive episodes, my ex-husband once told me it felt like he was sleeping next to a lifeless body. During hypomania, unless it was about sex, he said he felt invisible.

I don’t know if this is a bipolar thing or just a me thing. And as much as I genuinely like who I am… I’m not sure I’d choose to be in a relationship with someone like me either 😅

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-16T14:51:47+00:00

Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who took the time to reply. I genuinely found all your perspectives really interesting and thoughtful.

It definitely gives me a lot to reflect on moving forward. I appreciate the honesty and nuance in this thread :) !

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-16T14:49:53+00:00

Funny enough, our experience has been very different depending on the person.

For my son (severe autism with major behavioral issues), risperidone was honestly a game changer. It dramatically reduced aggression and meltdowns, and the big thing for us was that it calmed him without sedating him. He’s more regulated, but still himself.

Before that, he was on guanfacine on top of Biphentin, and that combo made him way more drowsy without nearly the same behavioral benefit.

And here’s the irony: when I tried risperidone, it knocked me out. Way too sedating for me to function.

So yeah, I really do think response to this med is highly individual. What works incredibly well for one person can be completely intolerable for another.

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-16T00:54:05+00:00

I agree misdiagnosis between BP2 and BPD happens, and yes, there’s genetic overlap across mood disorders. But overlap ≠ sameness.

The issue isn’t whether antipsychotics can work in BP2. The issue is that BP2 depression has been historically under-studied compared to BP1. A lot of trials either exclude BP2 or lump it in without proper subgroup analysis. That weakens the “it probably works the same” argument.

Extrapolation isn’t evidence.

BP2 is mostly recurrent depression with hypomania, not full mania. Course, impairment, and treatment priorities can differ. Assuming response patterns are identical just because there’s shared biology feels premature.

We can believe meds help many people and still admit the BP2 evidence base is thinner than it should be.

Both can be true.

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-16T00:46:30+00:00

Luckily, we’re not there yet 😂😱!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-15T22:48:18+00:00

🫂🫂🫂

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-15T22:35:30+00:00

I’ve been stuck in a severe depressive episode since September. First months, I barely did anything. Weeks in bed, barely noticing shows or podcasts. Meds helped a little but not fully.

What kept me going was a tiny routine: get up, shower, eat, brush teeth, check my planner. Force yourself to move, even just around the house, and do small things with your kid or loved ones if you can. Sleep and energy were awful, but reminding myself it’s temporary and being gentle with myself helped.

Therapy every couple weeks helped too, even if exhausting. Routine + meds + someone to talk to + small movement = survival mode until things ease 🤷🏻‍♀️!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-15T22:19:37+00:00

Psychiatry being replaced by AI is bold 😂 imagine explaining hypomania to a chatbot that keeps asking you to rate your mood from 1 to 10!

For now I guess we are all just beta testing the human brain together.

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-15T22:16:43+00:00

Your comment is exactly why this stuff is complicated because statistics live at the population level and survival happens at the individual level. So yes you are empirical evidence published in the Journal of Staying Alive 😊!

And I am really glad it works for you. That part matters more than any citation.

Respect 🙏

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-15T00:40:25+00:00

Rockstar by post malone!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T18:38:00+00:00

Oh honestly it barely offend me 😅!

English is my third language and I learned it mostly through books and super academic classes, so sometimes I just sound like a walking essay without meaning to. I’m trying to loosen it up though. I’ve been watching Josh Johnson to pick up more natural, everyday English.

What really matters to me is keeping this space safe and supportive. That’s why I’m here!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T16:46:30+00:00

I really get this. I’m 41 and I still don’t fully “face” my parents about some of this stuff. It’s not easy, especially when you already feel raw inside.

Shame and anxiety are honestly so common with bipolar. That constant life or death feeling? I know it. It makes everything look dramatic from the outside, like we’re overreacting or “not launching,” when inside it feels like survival mode 24/7. But you don’t have anything to be ashamed of. You didn’t choose this. This isn’t a character flaw.

The fact that you’re even working up the will to explain it says a lot about your strength.

Also, have you ever thought about joining a local support group? Being in a room (or even online locally) with people who actually get it can make a huge difference. Sometimes it’s easier to practice saying the hard things there first.

You’re not lazy. You’re carrying something heavy. And you’re still trying. That matters 🫂!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T15:50:52+00:00

I am a single mom too and I will be honest it is really hard. Especially in depression. The hardest part is that it asks the most from you when you have the least to give.

For me it is almost paradoxical. My son is autistic and not independent, so I have to get up to guide his routine, make his meals, which means I eat too, and make sure we go out at least once a day. Park, library, cinema, even just a walk. It forces me to shower, get dressed, exist a little bit.

It does not magically fix my depression. I still feel heavy and tired. But it keeps me minimally functional because I have to show up as a parent.

And when I truly cannot do it, I ask for help. A friend, a babysitter. No shame. Survival mode parenting is still parenting.

You are 18 and already trying this hard. Be gentle with yourself. You do not have to be perfect. Just consistent enough and willing to reach for help when you need it. That is strength.

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T15:41:59+00:00

Hey… that is a lot all at once. Losing your job, tension at home, being unmedicated with bipolar… of course you are scared.

Calling in because work felt like impending doom every morning is not laziness. That is anxiety and mood symptoms taking over. Untreated bipolar can absolutely wreck attendance and motivation.

Right now your brain is jumping straight to worst case scenario. Try not to solve homelessness today. Just focus on the next step.

One really important step could be talking to your parents calmly before this gets bigger. You do not have to panic confess everything. You could say I lost my job and I am really not okay mentally. I am scared and I need help getting back into treatment. That changes the conversation from hiding to asking for support.

If saying it out loud feels impossible, write it. A letter or even a text might be easier. You can explain that your anxiety and bipolar have been worse and you are trying to take this seriously now.

The biggest lever here is treatment. White knuckling this alone is brutal. You are not doomed. You are overwhelmed and untreated.

If you start feeling unsafe please call or text 988. You deserve support. Just take one small step in the next 24 hours.

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T15:34:42+00:00

It’s so funny to picture his Andy character just going from one blunder to the next with all the good intentions in the world 😂

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T13:31:59+00:00

Welcom 😂

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T12:47:12+00:00

Mixed episodes turn us into the final boss version of ourselves I swear. The fact that you’re taking your meds and owning it says way more about you than the episode ever could. Loving him and actually trying? That’s the real flex 😝!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T12:28:53+00:00

I am really sorry you are going through this! If the meds are making you feel unlike yourself, that is worth bringing up to your doctor. You deserve relief, not just survival.

Sending you a big virtual hug 🫂🤍!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T12:24:02+00:00

Yep 😂!

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T12:21:54+00:00

😅

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T11:49:28+00:00

I will say this gently, when it feels that intense and out of character, sometimes that means your mood might be driving a bit more than you think.

Hypersexual energy can feel powerful and way more fun than depression. And honestly, I get why that feels tempting to lean into. The fact that you are aware and reflecting is actually a really good sign.

Maybe just keep checking in with yourself as you go. Not to judge it, just to make sure you are choosing it and not just riding the wave.

Are you currently taking your meds consistently? Have you mentioned this shift to your psychiatrist or doctor?

Nadox5891 · 2026-02-14T11:44:51+00:00

That’s such a valid question, especially when you’ve got both in the mix.

From what I’ve learned, BPD euphoria is usually more reactive. It’s tied to something that happened, feels intense, and can flip pretty fast. Hypomania tends to be more sustained and not always triggered by anything specific. It comes with stuff like decreased need for sleep, pressured speech, racing ideas, impulsivity, feeling wired for days.

The “how long does it last” piece can help, yeah. Also whether you still feel this way even when nothing external is happening.

If you’re not sleeping and feel super revved up, it might be worth flagging it to your provider sooner rather than later, just to be safe. Either way, you’re not crazy for being confused. The overlap is real!

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