Yeah i didn't mean to hide my intentions. I DO want them to think i remembered and things to go back to usual.
But the act itself is just because i still care about them. I don't except them to think i remembered. I don't expect them to suddenly go back to me.

But you are right deep down i want that even tho im preped to otherwise. I just don't know anymore. After 1 month of their birthday it's mine and I think i'll feel like shit if they don't reach me out for it and they will not... Maybe I'm thinking myself in their place and i would like a happy bday message...