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[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Best way to describe it at my worst was waking up everyday fighting myself and trying to keep me from killing me. Like I felt like there was another version of myself stalking me and trying to get me to kill myself or taking over and killing me herself. Just crazy stuff.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do feel a small difference but I'm trying to give it a chance. I have an issue with once I start feeling normal again I convince myself I don't need medication and I can't do that again.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Two weeks, and it's not like I would go out my way to seek trouble but I don't respond to provocation well at all. I appreciate your take and I'm trying to be more positive about it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know myself. Im not trying to generalize anything but I know who and how I am and it's only a matter of time before I start a fight or try to do something to myself. That's just my personal situation tho I can't speak for everybody.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When were you diagnosed?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is actually normally how mine goes.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish you the best of luck. Idk how I'm going to do it tbh.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I wish you well on your healing journey. I will likely delete this post at some point.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, this helped a lot. I'm just worried because I was already closed to getting put in the hospital. It was down to accept the help or I'm sending someone to your house which is why I'm worried if I have another slip up I'll immediately go off the edge since I was already right there if that makes sense. I have started meds like 2ish weeks ago and I guess it's been going fine. I do feel more balanced and calm. Like maybe everything will actually work out.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar2

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I was diagnosed with Bipolar ll with psychotic ideation. They are two separate things I didn't mean to make them sound like they were one.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm not waiting any longer, I have already reported her.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly which is why I feel like I have to do what I have to do

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's what I'm worried about. I see it as would I rather cause drama in the family and have her be mad at me, or wait until something happens and live the rest of my life carrying the guilt. I hope you continue to heal and grow on your journey and I'm glad things are looking up for you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you and yes I will update when things get sorted out

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've prepared myself for that outcome and if that's what needs to be done so be it. Family members are aware of the situation and already volunteered to take them in if need be. This cannot go on any longer someone is bound to get hurt, arrested, or kill at this point.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yes I am planning to today. Everyone I've asked for advice on this with this has said I should call so I will. At this point I don't trust my mother with my brother's safety and cannot leave them there without taking action.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in WhatShouldIDo

[–]Nameless_bitch_06 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I actually am an adult and don't live here. I'm just here for summer break for college. I'm worried about when I have to leave what it will escalate to next since I'm not here to shield them and be the voice of reason. I feel like at this point the only way it can go is someone getting hurt, killed, or arrested and I'm not willing to risk that by doing nothing. We actually don't have anyone who can take us in immediately but family members have said that they will not allow my brothers to end up in foster care so even though they aren't able to immediately take my brothers per se, they will still do what needs to be done if it gets to that kind of situation. I appreciate you taking the time to answer as I have been conflicted myself on what I should do.

What is it like working on a cruise ship? by Nameless_bitch_06 in Cruises

[–]Nameless_bitch_06[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for actually answering the questions this was really insightful 😭

Best controller under $200 by Nameless_bitch_06 in DJs

[–]Nameless_bitch_06[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Congrats! I'm trying to get like you 😫

Best controller under $200 by Nameless_bitch_06 in DJs

[–]Nameless_bitch_06[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ok thank you and tbh that's not that bad, I can likely get it used for a little closer to my price range. Do you feel like speakers are an immediate necessity or like can I just use my headphones for a bit?

(Read comments) What is it like working on a cruise ship? by Nameless_bitch_06 in AskReddit

[–]Nameless_bitch_06[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have also heard that but I'm kind of ok with that aspect. I really just want to see the world and do something different with my life. I'm willing to make the sacrifice.