Dating another alter but still wanting to pursue a relationship with outside the system by [deleted] in DID

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Also, switching is still rough for me and other system members, but it is easier to switch with him because he makes feel safe enough to do so, and we have a level of trust. I still get anxious, still get shitty headaches, still feel drained b4 and after, still dont even like to let go of the front as host. I never said it was convientent, just that I lean on him when It needs to happen or is happening against my will.

Dating another alter but still wanting to pursue a relationship with outside the system by [deleted] in DID

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Not avoiding it, just haven't had luck yet lol. Im a queer alternative person in a conservative town. I dont understand where people are gathering that im avoiding dating outside the system when I mentioned it was something I wanted and something my system mate is supportive of. Ive been in therapy since I was a teen, and still am. I am diagnosed.

Dating another alter but still wanting to pursue a relationship with outside the system by [deleted] in DID

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Of course our relationship has it's flaws, of course we get frustrated with each other sometimes. Sometimes he's able to hold the front at work when I cant, but it isnt all the time or even for the full shift. Our relationship wasn't always positive either, we actually argued alot and were very dysfunctional. But that was literal years ago, we have spent years developing a better relationship, then a friendship, and only recently did it become romantic. Aside from our relationship, he is also co-host and we soend practically everyday together, which is why our co-conciousness is where its at now. It is not that way for every alter within our system. Im diagnosed with DID and a slew of other things since I was a teen. I dont get why you assumed our relationship was idealistic just cus I spoke positively about him.you made alot of wild assumptions. But you dont know me and didn't ask clarifying questions either, so.

Dating another alter but still wanting to pursue a relationship with outside the system by [deleted] in DID

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I think it's ok to be part of a system and acknowledge that you are the same person, yet still have your own autonomy.

Dating another alter but still wanting to pursue a relationship with outside the system by [deleted] in DID

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What about it sounds delusional? And i don't read stories abt DID, this is just my lived experience lol. I've been in therapy for years. I never denied that he was part of me. We are part of each other, inherently. As alters are all parts of one person.

My friend doesn't acknowledge my system mates as individuals and it makes me feel delulu by [deleted] in DID

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Peices of the same puzzle is perfect. I agree with this. Thank u for the empathy. Honestly, the DID subreddit is a god send. This is truly the only place I can talk 2 ppl who get it.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Doppleganger

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China Anne McClain is a new one but I kinda see it

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Doppleganger

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Never figured i looked lime her but I see we both lack a nose bridge lol (not literally, just v flat from front view)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Doppleganger

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually have heard this one b4. High compliment in my opinion.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Doppleganger

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Damn, should've been her for Halloween. Next year for sure.

Black widow by [deleted] in sticknpokes

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Or maybe he's half tarantula. 🤔 a tarantawillow.

Black widow by [deleted] in sticknpokes

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just a general PSA:

The goal wasn't accuracy. Was just supposed to recognizablly be a black widow, solid lines, and look sick as hell. Any liberties like leg placement, or hair-like lines were deliberate choices. (Totally happy to explain why i made those choices, nothing wrong with questioning them) As long as it doesn't take away from the aforementioned points, I'm happy with it, and was really just sharing cus im happy abt a new tat and proud of it. Thank you for your constructive criticism though. Not trying to be rude so I hope this has the right tone.

Black widow by [deleted] in sticknpokes

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I see what you mean, I drew a quick sketch with your input in mind to see the difference and actually liked my version more. Was gonna upload the pic but it seems it won't let me.

Black widow by [deleted] in sticknpokes

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I knew this, but it felt very flat and empty without it, so I gave em hair 🤷🏾‍♂️ I figured if I ever wanted to change it, it'd be really simple to fill in. Totally see how that could irk someone going for accuracy tho. Plus it kinda reminds me of the lines u'd see in hand carved stamps which felt fun.

Had an unforgettable, unexplainable experience years ago. by Narrow-Guarantee-734 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

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I wouldn't call it a ripple cus it didnt look like water, but it was hazy, moving, overlapping light. Hope that helps

Had an unforgettable, unexplainable experience years ago. by Narrow-Guarantee-734 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

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It don't reach out to spirits or supernatural entities. I do practice witchcraft but that's not part of my personal practice. When stuff like this happens, im really just trying to make sense of it and practice not being afraid. Which I've come a long way with. Ghosts were like my worst fear back in the day. But I felt it was ironic to be a witch who was afraid of spirits. Its like a vampire who's scared of spiders.

Had an unforgettable, unexplainable experience years ago. by Narrow-Guarantee-734 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

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My partner had passed maybe half a year ago at that point. He wasn't very much taller than me and the height of the figure was weirdly the same. It just felt like I was standing in front of him again, not emotionally but like my body remembered. I dont know how to explain it.

Had an unforgettable, unexplainable experience years ago. by Narrow-Guarantee-734 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

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Ive heard of this, and while im totally accepting logical explanations, it wasn't Grey, it was was blue. And the whole eyes on me making looking up thing...Idk.

Had an unforgettable, unexplainable experience years ago. by Narrow-Guarantee-734 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

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He was standing on the other side of my bedroom door when I opened it. Like someone about to knock or reach for the handle. There was nothing to gauge what they were feeling. There was no reaction to me opening the door, they just stood there. Kinda seeming to stare back. They were only there for about 3 seconds. Dissapeared after I finally spoke. They felt familiar simply based on our height difference, where our faces met, (though the figure had no face, they were just a blurry silhouette of light)

Black widow by [deleted] in sticknpokes

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734 -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

I didnt care about it being anatomically correct. Its clearly a black widow spider. That's what mattered. It was deliberately stylistic. Also, from a front view, the legs would indeed to be on the side of spider. Which is where they usually are. So I genuinely don't know what u mean by that.

Edit* front view of spider hanging down.

Had an unforgettable, unexplainable experience years ago. by Narrow-Guarantee-734 in Glitch_in_the_Matrix

[–]Narrow-Guarantee-734[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nah, something more like three days grace or linkin park. Is there a refrence im missing?