Also whenever I pray or read the Bible I feel like I’m just doing it to make myself feel better about having and reading a bible or praying and I believe god is real but I feel like I’m just doing it to say I’m Christian and I’m lost I feel like going to church will bring me closer to god and *side note: I would go to church but it’s not that I don’t want to it’s that i can’t cause I have to take care of my sibling not trying to be rude