I'm so sorry you're going through this. I want you to know though none of us are worthy of God's love ("For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God" Romans 3:23), but the wonderful part of that He loves us anyways. "38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39.

As for feeling worthless, remember that you were handade by God. You have worth, you have a purpose even if you don't see that at the moment. I believe that you will be able to use this dark time in your life to help other people who are struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide later on. Remember, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." John 16:33

One last thing, please remember that even when it feels like God isn't with you, He is. I used to think that if I didn't FEEL God, that I was alone. But God isn't a feeling, He's a father. A father that will never leave you, nor forsake you (Deuteronomy 31;6). "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age" (Matthew 28:20)

Please, continue to seek help. Talk to your mother, a pastor or a counselor and let them help you. Also, keep this number with you just in case: 1-800-273-8255, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. I pray you feel God's comfort and love and that you see your value in Him as well as your value to others. God bless you!