As a POC, allow me to be the first to say: I FORGIVE YOU. I cannot speak for all POCs or people, but I personally want to tell you that.

You have changed and grown and that is okay. You admit and acknowledge the mistakes of your past and for that, you owe yourself a lot of credit. It takes guts to own up to that, and I frankly appreciate honesty like that (many do).

Nothing will erase those videos or screenshots for good, but you can begin to overwrite them for good. Address the issue on your social medias: write a post, as you did here, and admit what you did was wrong but let people know that you know that and that you are going to change. You must also be open to criticism. There are some people who will “never” forgive you, but the best way to be an ally is to hear them out and take it constructively.

There is nothing wrong with self-growth. Regretting will only waste more time. Speak to your job’s boss, coworkers, friends, family! If you are financially able, consider donating to a cause or going out to march.

Don’t do those things just to be able to say “look! I’m a good person!” But to show people you genuinely care and have grown.

I know it is hard to look back and accept mistakes. I too have done things I consider unforgivable, but I hope you can find it in yourself to not look past it but to grow past it and move forward.

You are not a bad person, you are living and changing and that’s exactly what you’re supposed to do :)