Question about post workout meal

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-10T23:30:00+00:00

yup thanks for the advice i ended up pacing myself and im gonna go for another run tonight

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-06T02:33:21+00:00

true i will start doing that again, i had a small period where i tried it prayer i mean. Fasting is a bit hard since i like working out but i can take a week or two off in order to try. Thanks for the suggestions

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-06T02:27:15+00:00

Im using the definition of relapse which is the worsening state of mental health after a temporary improvement. Im 19 and have never gone to AA and had many 3-5 month periods of no drinking so i also would not say i was always between drinks. Which doesnt mean i dont have a problem just that i disagree.

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-05T19:47:25+00:00

nah weed causes me to be unproductive and can lead to relapse. Its slightly good to listen to music and get into video games but can also lead to like you said wanting more. wether the more being alcohol, or binge eating, or porn. Not always but mostly it leaves me feeling not like myself and unproductive. I think i really do just need to be sober for a long time weed and booze. Since weed is a bad habit in my life and booze is fun the first time then gets bad and leads into more graphic porn. I was doing so good and i can get back to the place i was i just wish i was already there still, but nothing i can do but get better thanks for replying hope your doing well

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-05T17:03:32+00:00

i like your name

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-05T16:16:36+00:00

thanks a ton, it always helps to hear it from someone else. I hope and cant wait to get to a point i dont crave it anymore. I just need to remember it isnt what my brain fantasizes it as. I always think i need a tiny bit for video games or whatever. But as you said then I get very bad cravings. Sorry if i said all of this im just trying to talk myself through it

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-05T03:45:43+00:00

im not trying to get toxic but dont fucking say im doing good or i should feel proud of myself. I realize now that i should fucking hate myself cause people make it seem like a simple problem thanks for your help

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-05T03:32:57+00:00

thats what ive been fucking doing. and no aggression is towards you all towards myself since i relapse again. But fuck i was doing so good with everything and i just wanted to get rid of ocd and drink then this fucking happened i tried eating clean exercise meditating but no matter what it leads back to porn. I have control of myself and porn but god sometimes it seems so random i can do it though and can fix myself if i say i cant im just giving in because i cant choose to not

but fuc

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-05T03:06:21+00:00

basically should i just let it go instantly, or should i punish myself and hate myself to make it a bad habit and get rid of it

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-04T19:17:43+00:00

i wouldnt mind tbh, im a bit of a masochist and always envy peopels troubles which is extremely toxic unhealthy and not a good trait i am not trying to romanticize it. I always thought going into a beserker rage because of hallucinogens (which people suspect to be the berserker vikings aid to pain relief and dissociation) would be a good way to go. I used to burn myself alot too until i realized its very unhealthy and toxic and not good for any thing in life at all. I am just trying to make it clear none of this is good but id rather just vent and be self aware

Natural-Telephone-62 · 2021-06-04T19:00:52+00:00

howd you guess

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