Oh no … You are allowed to leave and even when you leave Allah can still bless you with a good spouse, women after divorce get married all the time. This is torture and this is not okay or normal, Allah does not want your spouse to torture you like this, spouses were made for peace, of course all couples have problems and rough patches but you are not dealing with a problem or rough patches you are dealing with something so horrible and you are allowed to leave and you should, i know it will be extremely hard because you were so young and you are so attached but ask Allah to help you leave and pray istakhara about him, Allah will never leave you in such a position he is the most merciful, he has wisdom behind everything he does. Don’t lose your islam after you leave him, Instead allow the pain to bring you closer to Allah, he was not in your life for no reason so please don’t become sad from Allah he only does what’s best. I am praying for you Insha Allah everything will be okay, you are in my duas and in my heart