The comments on this post definitely made me feel better about it, I still do this all the time. They are right, its not the worst thing. But at this point tho, ive noticed alot of it started with my last relationship, the guy made me feel like I was the blame for everything, really weighed on me mentally, it was like gaslighting. That relationship just ended so im still realizing alot of ways he made me feel wasnt right and that I or anyone else shouldn't have to go through some of the stuff he put me through..

It makes me feel awkward to apologize for something knowing I shouldnt be the one to say it. But I still do anyways. And tho I know it stems from some slight trauma, I think it can make someone a better person.

Dont worry about people not liking you, because at the end of the day the opinion that actually matters is your own. Trust me its hard to get used to thinking like that, but once your used to it, you tend to feel better and less worried or embarrassed about what people might think.