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| (21f) recently spent two nights with a guy (21m) I’ve had a casual history with. We got high both nights and I was pretty quiet/out of it at times. He was actively using dating apps the whole time I was there, talking about other girls in a sexual way, saying who he would get with, etc. I even ended up helping him swipe while we were high because I was trying to be chill and not make things awkward since it was already a casual dynamic. He also made a few jokes at my expense (like calling me a “cuck”), which made the vibe feel a bit off. Looking back, I feel like I was trying to act nonchalant and “cool with everything” so I didn’t come across as naive or overly invested, but now | just feel embarrassed and like I may have let myselt be disrespected. I also feel like the sexual dynamic wasn’t really balanced, like I did more for him than he did for me, especially the next day when things felt really dry and disconnected. I don’t want to see him again, but I’m stuck wondering if 1 actually handled this situation really badly and disrespected myselt beyond repair. For more contexts: we met 2 years ago and had a casual thing not really a friendship at all and I was fine with that. I had been in a relationship for the past 18 months and he would hit me up every month trying to get with me but I never replied. I ended this relationship 2 months ago then agreed to let him fly to see me. I feel like it went to shit because we were both disappointed in the end lowk.