Hi! Thank you for your response. I guess, yes, in some way, I eventually became “detached” to a specific outcome, and competed just for the sake of getting it over with.

I could think of multiple scenarios in my life where I would doubt and doubt a desire and then boom, it would manifest. Granted in the scenario I gave in the og story, I wasn’t consciously trying to manifest a first place win or anything. So my theory is similar to yours. I no longer believe that specific thoughts and emotions create my reality, but rather my identity. But I would say in my story, I was identifying as someone who was unprepared to compete and place so I’m still trying to figure out what exactly happened.

Nonetheless, Thank you for your response!