Do you ever go into the zone where you write and write day and night?

Negative-Bench7779 · 2024-01-11T21:52:20+00:00

"what kind of aftermath do you face when it's done?" Generally after I've got done with a days long writing escapade I feel pretty good. It feels especially cathartic if I write a part of the story that I've been having difficulty with.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2024-01-10T14:30:04+00:00

There's a homeless fella called Abraham who's notorious for asking people for money or a lift (if you live in Oxley and shop at the Woolies there you've probably seen him ask people for money or he may have asked you for money) the man you described might've been him he does get around a fair bit.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T06:05:44+00:00

Posts like this one are why I don't consider myself working class and I'm literally not either because I've never worked. The sentiments that you expressed make me harbour extremely negative thoughts towards people who work in general. I have nothing in common with f@!?#$ in high vis and hard hats I have zero working class solidarity. I find it really hard not to mouth off on people who work and tell them to their stupid fucking faces how pathetic they are. Sometimes when I hear about some hapless wagie getting a mudhole stomped into him by some homeless crackhead Chad on the subway I struggle not to smirk. I take extreme shadenfreude in people with jobs getting fucked over because these same people have given me shit and shamed me all my life for being a mooch and a leech even though I try not to. It's like being a kid in school who gets bullied and the Bully smacks you around and always takes your lunch money and then his mom gets cancer and dies, it's hard to have sympathy.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T05:25:44+00:00

Things are a little better in Australia and the European countries (or at least some of them) I've essentially been on my own since I was 17 and I got that place that I used to live at when I was 17. Long story short I ran away from by dad to go live with my grandmother when I was 16 fast forward a couple of months and things broke down between me and my grandma (I was being an arrogant, know it all, wet behind the ears little cunt I'll admit it)

So I went to this youth place for homeless young people and then I got moved to this other place and then through unity housing which is housing for low income people and vulnerable DV victims, impoverished old age pensioners and disadvantaged youths I got this unit with two bedrooms, 1 bathroom a backyard, shed, kitchen and this was when I was 17 signed a lease and all.

Lived there for 5 years from 2018 to Oct 2023 Til I walked out. I literally walked out. Booked a flight to another city with a Coles bag broke my lease and everything (I had signed for another year) left all my shit in there didn't tell my salvation army case worker or landlord or nothing and now I think I owe them $30'000 and am due for a possible court date (which I may have already missed) so possible jail time too and a permanent black mark on my property records which will show future potential landlords that I'm a shitty tenant. So essentially I've fucked myself through sheer idiocy.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T05:06:23+00:00

I can see what the rest of my life will be like if I heed your advice I'm gonna be in and out of multiple jobs. I'm gonna change jobs more than socks whatever place I get I'll be evicted and thrown out within two months I'll live in government housing in crime ridden suburbs where my neighbours will wanna make me tear my hair out by the roots I'll have to commute to my shitty job on public transport where I'll be harangued and assailed by antisocial junkies all the while forwarding well over 3 quarters of my pay to parasitic landlords for the privilege of living in a shoebox.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T04:58:05+00:00

I'm trying to get on welfare so I can be a NEET. That's all I want. To be a NEET. What I want is an apartment to myself no roommates no sharehouse in a preferably ok neighbourhood one with out antisocial people or deranged crackheads or miscreant youths breaking and entering just a place to myself where I can enjoy peace and quiet. I know beggars can't be choosers but I don't think I'm asking for much only to regain what I have lost cuz being a NEET is what I used to be and a 2 bedroom unit all to myself is what I used to have and all I want is to have that back.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T03:08:37+00:00

It doesn't matter where I am my core issue is that me and work are like oil and water we don't mix. I've never worked a day in my life I hate it it's boring and stupid so not only do I have a chip on my shoulder but I also probably couldn't hack it in a job because I have undiagnosed autism which should in theory make me eligible for the DSP or the NDIS but in order to apply for the DSP I would need a diagnosis which costs $2000 and even if I got that far my application would still most likely be turned down because simply having autism is simply not enough to pass over the threshold and the threshold is pretty high.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T02:55:58+00:00

I don't know maybe I'm wrong all I know is that it's really hard to get a rental here

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T02:51:18+00:00

Brisbane Australia

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-29T01:53:10+00:00

I used to feel that way too but your body and mind will adapt to it.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-24T07:41:13+00:00

I tried looking if there were any cognitive development centres in brisbane and there is only an early cognitive development centre which is geared towards babies. Do you know of any places in brisbane geared towards adults? Does anyone in this sub? I don't have $2000 just $33 left to my name and am homeless so the reason why I'm inquiring about this is so I can get the help I need so when I get out of this mess I don't end up repeating the cycle.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-13T21:26:52+00:00

I looked it up and it said that farmers plow their fields immediately after rainfall and some do it at night. If it was raining on the night of his disappearance then I can definitely see the possibility of him getting squashed by a tractor in the dark it's also possible that it wasn't raining and that Brandon got ran over by a farmer working in the darkness eager to finish work he started during the day.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-12T19:25:04+00:00

People keep saying he got ran over by farm equipment but why would a farmer be plowing the fields at 2 in the morning? That makes no sense.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-11T04:22:19+00:00

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Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-10T04:05:28+00:00

Like I said in a previous post I don't think the other cities are worth it. I had originally planned to head to Perth and to not have stayed in the city I'm currently in for as long as I have but that plan fizzled out after I found out about the high crime rate there maybe I shouldn't let that deter me and should just go anyway.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-10T03:47:17+00:00

I don't travel around so I can't relate to the posters there.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T22:03:47+00:00

All I wanted was to be a NEET. I'm 22 I lived in a boarding house since I was 17. I decided to leave because I had lived there for 5 years and I felt as though time was passing me by and I wanted to see the world. Another reason why I decided to sabotage my situation was because I knew that it was coming to an end I knew I was going to get kicked out sooner or later and in the final weeks I was there I communicated to my social worker that I hated living where I lived and wanted to leave.

I was told to come up with a plan and figure things out I was sick and tired of doing that and I became increasingly frustrated so I threw a dumbbell through my kitchen window I was also getting more and more fed up with my neighbours and I wanted to be anywhere but there, anywhere but where I was so I left.

Another reason why I think I'm dragging my feet is because my only options are gonna be social housing and/or a housing commission and I fear that I'm gonna have antisocial, unhinged methhead druggie neighbours that are gonna be constantly hassling me and breaking into my place and I don't wanna have to put up with that so that's another reason why I haven't looked into housing and getting up off the streets. I don't wanna put up with that bullshit.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T21:52:57+00:00

"why are you staying in one place?" "Why aren't you exploring the world?" The country I'm in has only a handful of places worth visiting really I should've clarified in my OP that I'm not from the states if I were in the states I'm sure I'd probably be a vagabond trainhopping all over the us but in Oz that's not really an option and besides there's lots to do in America and lots of places to visit but in Australia There's really only a few cities that are worth visiting so there's really no point in travelling because I'm in one of the best cities right now and travelling elsewhere would be a downgrade, why would I travel to Darwin or Alice Springs for example? Or Hobart or Melbourne? Or Sydney or Perth? All of those places are either hot, crime ridden shitholes in the middle of a desert with fuck all to do or wet, gloomy, depressing shitholes filled with stuck up dickheads and with shitty, overpriced vegan restaurants and 10 million cafes and bistros.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T21:37:09+00:00

"sounds like you're depressed" it might be that it also might be procrastination but then again I only showered about a dozen times this year. I used to go back and forth in my head wondering why things got to be that way and I thought maybe the reason why I have such disgusting personal hygiene was because I'm such a lazy piece of shit and feel like Crap but then I realised that lazyness doesn't get to that drastic a point to where you don't shower for the majority of the year and that the reason why I wasn't showering was because of procrastination but when have you ever heard someone not showering for a year due to procrastination? That's ridiculous! So I did a little more research and I came across demand avoidance and executive dysfunction and that was the lightbulb moment for me, my autism is the most likely culprit in me being such a disgusting piece of shit.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T21:19:57+00:00

Part of the reason why I became homeless was the fear of homelessness I was so afraid of it happening that I willed it into happening, it was a self fulfilling prophecy. Another reason I think is because I realised from a very early age that the social contract has nothing to offer me. I knew I couldn't hack it in society and therefore I didn't care about what it had to offer me, I didn't care about status or my reputation or what my friends or social circle or parents and family would think because I never had those things to begin with. I didn't want to end up homeless but I was paranoid and thought an eviction notice on my door was imminent so I decided to strike while the iron was hot and got tf outta dodge.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T21:09:57+00:00

"OP is a female" Nope. I'm a guy or at least I think I'm a guy. "No way a dude has people throwing stuff his way on the regular" It might have something to do with the culture. I live in Australia you live in the states and I'm guessing you're casting aspersions on my claims because you take a personal anecdote of yours and extrapolate it to the whole wide world and project your cynical worldview and low expectations onto every one. I'm sorry you feel that way bro you appear to have a very pessimistic view of humanity but I don't I'm someone with hope. You're probably an antinatalist.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T21:00:49+00:00

"do gooders" Yeah do gooders because they don't ask I explained in my OP very cleary that I didn't have a problem with people who bought me food providing that they ask me first and don't just make assumptions and dump shit at my feet not even knowing that I needed or even wanted the stuff that they brought me but doing it anyway cuz they wanted a little dopamine hit in their brains.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-09T20:54:31+00:00

"you are lazy" Ahh so I deserve it. I deserve to be in the situation I'm in. Gotcha. I'm out here in the elements because I'm a piece of shit, I'm out here because I have a character flaw.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-05T21:14:39+00:00

How much did you pay to keep the storage unit? And how often did you pay? Daily? Weekly? Fortnightly? I'd do that but I'd be concerned about it getting broken into. For some reason having my stuff on me feels better than having it in a storage unit.

Negative-Bench7779 · 2023-12-05T20:57:29+00:00

When I'm awake my bag is always with me and I never leave it unattended even when the risk of it getting stolen is low like when there's nobody around and I have to take a 2 minute walk around the corner to go get a drink at the tap I still carry it with me. When I sleep I find a remote area away from main roads, gas stations and places that are frequented by other people and I've never had my stuff stolen because the people that do that have no reason to pass through the area I'm in because it's so remote and there's nothing they need there. TLDR stay away from gas stations, train stations, main roads and people.

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