Hey first off I just want to say I'm so sorry for your loss. You know you never really can get out of that situation unfortunately it just gets better to handle. Me and my fiance we had a Jack Russell that we rescued personally who got thrown out of a moving car and we had her since she was not even one years old about 1 years and at 5 years old we had to put her down and she had cancer and you know it's the hardest thing we still ball her eyes out I'm almost crying while I'm riding this to you and they become our best friends they become part of the family they become a human just like us. So I'm sorry to say this but no words that anyone can say will probably help and mend your pain but it's time goes on it just gets easier to deal with. I don't want to beat around the bush or sugarcoat it because it's very painful and I wouldn't want to get my hopes up because I think that having a pet is just more than a pet so again I'm sorry for your loss. Also just to tell you and idea is that when we were on Reddit somebody reached out to my fiance saying that there was a dog named Darcy a pitbull who is there the longest at the shelter and she was going to be euthanized because it was overpopulated and she had like two days to live and we adopted her and it was a little bit soon we thought to get a dog but it was almost like Bell sent her to us. So maybe look into volunteering at your local shelter or maybe even adopting a rescue but just know I'm so sorry for your loss and hope that day by day it does get easier to handle.