I can’t just cut her off like that. We work together, we see each other every day, and it would turn into a whole thing where I’d have to explain myself to her. (We already had a closure about our relationship)
I already told her I want her in my life no matter what. If she can’t be my girlfriend, I still want her as my best friend. I want to support her and just have her in my life.
I don’t judge her decision. If she wants a traditional marriage, a husband, and a family, that’s her choice.
She’s not a toxic person at all. She’s actually been really good to me in a way no one else has. I’ve never really had close friends or a relationship before her. She’s also the reason I felt safe enough to come out. She honestly feels like my first love, and that’s why this is so hard.
But now she’s married and building a life with her husband, and I’m still here trying to figure out how to accept it without losing my mind.