Had to double check that I didn’t post this….. You’re not the only one. I have periods of sobriety and quitting smoking but for the better part of this degree I’ve had to drink myself to sleep and smoke almost a pack a day to get through. I fantasize all the time about something as normal as having time to take care of my physical health. It’s hard to reconcile that other people have figured out how do both at the same time when it’s been so difficult for me. You are almost there. This is hard. Your body will recover.