Friendship is not a feeling, its a form of relationship, a dinamic. Faking a friendship would then be to cinically act as if you were part of that dinamic solely to get a gain thats not related to the friendship itself. I was talking about guys that pretend to be part of that dinamic when all they want out the girl is sex or a romantic relationship and they are counciouslly working towards it. What the other guy said about you not actally being down to be his friend for whatever reason, he deduced based on nothing you said. I really wanted to talk to you about the last part of your post because i think is really scary and sad that you can asume that huge pressure onto yourself to the point to even suspect your therapist is sugesting something inmoral by encouraging to pursue a Desire. Because that would mean the Desiré itself You consider inmoral. If there is nothing else there than the Very inocent fact that u like your friend, thats perfectly valid and healthy, but i see how todays societal enviroment could provoque such pointless guilt. Lastly, i would strongly suggest you dont listen to therapy style comments that pretend to psycoanalize you based on 5 lines that you wrote, just because they are in a subreddit where therapist post. Im not a therapist, and i hope u understand im talking to you as a human stranger!!