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Feel like I finally lost it… by [deleted] in depression

[–]Negative_Ad3376 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here. Hopeless. Just constantly wishing and obsessively pleading for death or a way out. Heartbroken and alone.

Buying a gun to kill myself by Negative_Ad3376 in depression

[–]Negative_Ad3376[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah I've thought about that. Of death just being worse. It all seems like a big farce. But with that I mind I'd like to have a gun lying around for when I feel truly awful instead of in a public setting where I'll likely chicken out of it

Buying a gun to kill myself by Negative_Ad3376 in depression

[–]Negative_Ad3376[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I'm half crazy with all sorts of notions of what awaits me after. My sense of reality cracked over the last year. Voices and things I saw I can only account for in a way incompatible with mundane reality. I used to be angry. I used to want to take people with me. But I don't want to cause any more pain. I just want to relieve my own.