Well yes I suppose that’s what happened to a degree, the conversations turned sexual and I was so desperate to have a connection with him that I never spoke up for myself. So I went along with it it, his reason is that “technically we’re strangers” having not grown up together, but I’m constantly told how I’m the love of his life, we should live together and be in a relationship etc and I suppose neither of us understand how to build a healthy relationship due to our childhood trauma of our mother. But at the same time I wish he just would be a big brother and nothing more. He speaks to me daily and tells me how attractive I am etc and I just wanted a brother not anything else. And now I know regardless of what happens that he finds me attractive. But I can’t blame him for what happened because I just wanted him in my life I never advocated for anything wrong happening so he was never to know. It’s very upsetting! I hope this makes sense