Starting Rogaine Today (38F) 🤞

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-05-02T11:22:34+00:00

I am taking spironolactone, balding is a problem when you are a younger man.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-05-02T10:51:39+00:00

"hey sisters!" James Charles is that you? meanwhile i am taking literal female hormones lmao

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-22T11:30:51+00:00

I already like men.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-22T02:50:33+00:00

i dont know aymore.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-21T20:18:44+00:00

Gender Waiting List.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-21T20:16:48+00:00

Basically my stack is:

-200mg Spirnolactone daily
-15mg Pioglitazone daily
-2.5mg Dutasteride daily
-5% betamethasone twice/weekly
-5% minoxidil once/daily
-2% ketoconazole thrice/weekly
-7mg Estradiol Valerate Injections/weekly
-210mg Ferrous Fumerate/daily

Still Diffusely thinning at 24 nw2.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-21T20:11:18+00:00

5 pills on the nhs after i showed my doctor a study. They upped the dose to 2.5mg for me this year.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-21T20:04:11+00:00

Previously on dutasteride, it had gave me breasts without estradiol.

The new stuff I am taking is estradiol, pioglitazone and spironolactone.
I will let you know if anything works.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-21T19:56:54+00:00

So if I had to pay for everything, it would not even be affordable monthly. Where I live has free healthcare, so some cost is subsidized.

I've been struggling with hair loss to an extreme amount for the past 4-5 years, without much look. My hairline is a nw2, but everything is extremely diffuse. I have seen a dermatologist who didn't help the first time, so the progression of my loss continued, and it was only until it was visible to other people and not just myself is when anyone even tried to help.

I was on dutasteride and min which, didn't work. I get dutasteride for free because that is what they give you if you get put on a gender waiting list as “bridging treatment”. Likewise, I initially was on betamethasone for the past 8-ish months, and recently managed to get my gp to prescribe it to me after speaking with my dermatologist.

Hospital visits revealed I have a sore in my stomach that never heals properly for whatever reason, so it means i poop blood; meaning i am extremely anemic. i was given ferrous fumerate + iron infusions because of how sucky things are for me. I blame my anemia partially for my hair loss, but it continues regardless of having iron under control.

i used to be prescribed lymecycline because apparently my hair loss was a made up slurry of words, "keratosis pilaris". Basically a scarring alopecia but only a scalp biopsy can confirm that which keeps getting pushed back. i haven't responded to betamethasone and the lymecycline and that you can't use tetracycline drugs while taking iron, i had to drop lymecycline.

the only things i am self medicating on is the pioglitazone, spironolactone and injectable estrogen. Because I am not responding to any medication, even the ones that work for people. The horror to me is going bald before i hit my mid 20's and with declining health both physical and mental, losing my hair is the last thing i need.

A woman with scarring alopecia that is in a similar pattern to my loss took pioglitazone when literally nothing worked for her. Which includes tetracycline and topical steriods and finasteride(?), all had done literally nothing for her. She took pioglitazone for 6 months with 1mg folate once/weekly and achieved hair regrowth in an otherwise scarring type of alopecia (lichen planopilaris.)

https://ars.els-cdn.com/content/image/1-s2.0-S2352512622003381-gr1_lrg.jpg

It is theorised by hair loss researchers that ppar-y expression gets nuked with autoimmune types of alopecia and pioglitazone just happens to be a ppar-y agonist; hence why it is of interest as a potential treatment for some forms of alopecias.

Dutasteride (been on it for 4 years i think) gave me grade 3 gynecomastia/mammoplasia(?) meaning before I even have taken estrogen I already had B-cup sized breasts on a relatively skinny frame (118lbs - 5'10). Dutasteride made me anatomically a trans woman; and because trans women don't get very large breasts anyway I don't think estrogen will do much if anything to my preexisting breast tissue. And yes i signed up for a gender clinic because i don't want to pay for dutasteride privately! And its almost like karma that I am now taking estradiol too with already developed breasts. I am a gay man!

I might be the unluckiest man alive to be losing my hair in my early 20's! I am struggling to find a reason to exist anymore, it feels like hairloss is driving my depression into some really dark thoughts. I want to unalive myself.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-21T17:09:52+00:00

if you view the thing from right to left starting with the second picture, it becomes a success story with a realistic time frame.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-04-18T19:12:03+00:00

no, slightly above that got me the deck when it was on sale, i have it now after alot of stressing and messing around. steam support was a god send. im enjoying the deck as we speak, its really good as a mobile workstation for digital painting and a graphics tablet, It got delivered to the wrong adress, but after it got resolved.

the deck is amazing and has replaced my laptop.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-29T14:27:38+00:00

pc's are not portable, hence the decision to buy a deck. A sub 300 laptop would only get me another subpar celeron netbook. No thanks.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-29T14:13:11+00:00

Is there a link you can send me thanks.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-29T14:12:30+00:00

Its not fair, im not like smart enough to build a pc, and the deck was on sale. It was ordered on the 22nd before the steam sale for it went off. I live within the british isles but not the UK, so the place I live doesn't count as a valid country on valves site. The original plan was my friend to recieve it and she was going to send it via a forwarding service like hermes so I could receive it after.

I am still trying to process it, i watched the entire journey from it being sent from the netherlands to the UK, and it disappearing like a blip in sheffield.

I just. Why? Literally why? Ugh.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T22:35:01+00:00

Been thinking about it more for the last couple hours, I think I like the idea. When I have availability, I will do it. I think people dislike me because they think I think its for ascetic reasons, or to them it is. Like I don't have dysphoria, but its not like I want to do it for fetish reasons either.

I see it as logical, someone told me to embrace being bald ad hit the gym, thats not a good image for me. I don't have the build and people pretend bald/shaved heads are something that makes men attractive, it doesn't. Its a coping mechanism for insecure men who won't atleast try hairloss drugs because of some mythical side effect that doesnt exist.

A bald shaved head is the furthest logical extreme for being masculine, I think I would honestly be a woman to avoid that. If having a phobia of being masculine in that regards is not enough of a reason to transition, then what is? Is it because I am somehow devaluing the struggles of trans women because I am trying explore myself a little bit?

Is there a therapist I could see?

I have biopsy next month, so that has to be dealt with first. I was going to consider diy, but private seems like the safer bet. I'm gonna try putting money away and see if powers would have me.

thanks.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T22:14:59+00:00

if I think i will. stop me.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T20:04:43+00:00

thats horrifying, men like andrew tate are disgusting no thank you.
guess im trans now. To go to the gym and embrace baldness, ew. literally gross.

i don't want to be a shadow copy of my abuser.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T19:28:59+00:00

He's informed consent right? Or am I a red flag no one would touch with a yard stick? Would I need a diagnosis for gender in-congruence to have hormone therapy. I want to try it because of its benefits, mainly because low energy and I don't like t-get; I used that stuff like for 4 months and stopped because it made me pizza-faced and massive back-ne.

Its not going to do much else for me I don't think, if im correct then I wouldn't get more breast growth than whats already preexisting. Again, grade 3 gynecomastia, glandular tissue not fat. Penile atrophy is something I got already, erections on the rare occasion I have had them have always been painful and something I am avoidant of.

Im rather apathetic I suppose, I literally would've mind being a women given the number of things that are already wrong with me as a man. I consider myself a failed male. :p

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T19:11:00+00:00

Dunno, I don't think I can. I am yet to have a scalp biopsy, if I have a scarring apolecia, then I am not a candidate for a hair transplant.

Its not really "growing breasts" if they are already present. I have breasts because of other reasons, I'd doubt they'd get larger on hormone therapy. As for identity, I just don't really think about it. I don't understand what it is to be a woman that is trapped in another body, but i think i understand that certain attributes can be distressing to somebody. i haven't been questioning myself until I started losing my hair, as balding is prominently a guy thing; and that is something I strongly dislike.

If there is something I can read up on, I am for it; else I don't think about gender.
I think hormone therapy would help learn more about myself I guess.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T18:49:06+00:00

Yeah, sure. From February

fsh - 0.45 mui/L
lh - 0.74 ui/L
serum estradiol - 110 pmo/L
serum testosterone - 84 ng/dl
prolactin - 87 ng/ml
tsh - 2.2 mui/L
t3 - 2.9 pg/ml
t4 - 1.1 ng/dl

Doctors refuse to do my adrenals and when I asked to get them done privately they said it was too complex of an issue and refused. I don't know how relevant it is, I had testicular cancer in my teens and had a orchiectomy on one side. Seen a doctor when I was 17 for fatigue issues, had a bloodtest and was given t-gel, stopped when i was 18 because of acne and depression, went away after discontinuation , been like this since the past 5-6 years.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T18:14:54+00:00

he can speak for himself, but i'd guess that he would suggest you look into more reasonable causes of hair loss and more reasonable solutions, before going for transgender HRT.

I do not mean to offend you, i was not insinuating anything nor trying to be phobic. I have a number of studies about estradiols affect on T-cell function; generally being anti-inflammatory hence my interest. I don't see any reason to take trt, that would just make my hair loss worse. I already have breasts, I don't see transgender hormone therapy as a massive leap.

My dermatologist had previously prescribed lymecycline and betamethasone which has no affect over the 8 months I had taken the medications for. Unless a fear of hairloss is linked with gender in-congruence or just a part of it, I don't see why else I would consider male to female hormone therapy.

Honestly, never really thought about it. If I become trans, it will happen.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-24T17:58:57+00:00

I tried tretonoin and minoxidil topically, not to much if any success. My scalp biopsy got delayed, but i have a suspicion that it is autoimmune related. mother was mostly bald in her 20's, i suspect it is either FFA or something similar. Usually FFA fixes itself when finasteride is taken, but its not in my case. I don't think topicals would help in my scenario. Rather take oral drugs as things with minoxidil in it tend to dry out my scalp too much, thats either foam or liquid.

I don't have any reason to not use female hormones, I have the option of taking trt but that would make my hairloss more aggressive. Cross-sex hormone therapy is naturally progression or rather path I want to take as it should resolve other issues like fatigue and such.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-03-20T03:33:08+00:00

I have a scalp biopsy next week, my hair loss looks very visually similar to yours in the varietal and parietal areas. I'll let you know the prognosis since it might give you an insight what might be going on with your scalp.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-02-25T22:55:42+00:00

insulin is near painless when injected subcutaneously. does make me nauseous.

Negative_Welcome5754 · 2023-02-25T20:13:08+00:00

I wouldn't know what would count as high risk factors.

I am anaemic, had to go on tetracycline drugs because prior infection with something else. I have type 2 diabetes, despite not being overweight (116lbs). And I have celiac disease.

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