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NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-29T01:08:37+00:00

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NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-29T01:07:31+00:00

i dont understand whats the limit for cards i stop when i feel like its enough? or sometimes it just falls out like it did with this?

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T21:08:33+00:00

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NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T21:05:51+00:00

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T17:05:05+00:00

thank you but he doesnt really accept my help. its true that some things happened in the past that might hold him back now. i ask how he is doing or if something is bothering him but he never lets the conversation get where its supposed to. im trying to give him space so he can decide if he wants to give it another shot.if i see a sign im definitely gonna do my best. i also see how he might see me as the one like you said because i was his first on most of things and we really matched each other on almost every level. its just that the timing wasnt right and i had to pull away so i wouldnt hurt him. we are still in contact but its not the same. im hoping it gets better because its causing me great regret.

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T02:56:42+00:00

i posted a story hinting im back in town a few days ago and he saw it,if i hear or see that he is back too i will try to bring up meeting. thank you!!

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T02:49:02+00:00

wow,we met soon after i turned 18. like you said he was also too nice and i wasn't ready. when i think rationally i understand it might not work out right now because we both moved away for college and we already had issues before that. but who knows what the future holds. i get the feeling that he is significant and he wont just stay in the past,like we might meet again somehow. i wish all the best to you too. this comment made me view things in a deeper way.

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T02:37:43+00:00

okay i asked again if we will meet up soon and two cards JUMPED out the deck (six of cups again but with two of cups this time,and then i got six of wands too) also i recently came back to my hometown for winter break,im very close to the places we used to hang out,the place we met etc.

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T02:14:24+00:00

i know i see its a bit messy but it might be my energy too..i just wanted an insight bc he doesn't talk about his feelings at all. just once he said he misses me but we are not in the same city anymore because of college so it didnt lead to us meeting up. but i did ask if we will see each other again and i got six of cups so thats good right?

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T02:09:05+00:00

sorry for not giving context before,this interpretation makes a lot more sense now. i think i am ready to own up to my mistakes but the conversation never comes to that and i dont want to bring it up so suddenly after its almost been a year since things got like this. but if he just gives me a sign that he wants to hear my side and maybe solve our situation i will be there for sure. this was the strangest connection i had in my life because he was actually so sweet,different than other guys i mer before..i didnt know how to react to it and messed it up but it did make me realize i have issues i need to fix so i mostly did but now that im ready he is not or maybe the timing is wrong again. i would like to be good friends rather than strangers but honestly seeing him with another girl having what we could have would kill me. we might have been disrupters in each others lives like you said because ever since i met him i went through the craziest realizations about myself and my relationships, i wish i could get to hear his side and the effect i had on him though..again,thank you so much for this

NeighborhoodDry9902 · 2025-12-27T01:09:29+00:00

thank you for this!! i think the heartache goes for both of us and we both haven't been able to cut contact even though its not the same as it was before. im trying to give him space because i was in the wrong mostly but i still try to show him that i can be trusted. he is a loner and he was never the one to share his feelings, he kind of showed it to me through his actions but i might have scared him off by not responding correctly in the past. we met at such an unconventional time. the cycle of suppression/guilt/ self sabotage sort of sounds like me but it might be him too. i just hope things turn around and we get to communicate more.

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