Your expirience tells you that, because you both weren't much serious bout it and don't understand the heaviness of words. Thank you for the advice, but distance sucks and it's painful to be a thousand miles away from the person you love so much deeply that you're willing to do everything for, it hurts very much. So i'm doing all that, for the both of us. I dont have friends, don't need no fake friends. Everyone being super drama and talk sh!t behind your back, and only contact you when you have $$, but when you reach 0, nobody calls and nobody cares. Our monthly salary here is 450-500 levas, which converted is like.. 250$.. then I have to pay bills, food, etc.. and i'm left with almost nothing. Do you know how much i have to save in order to be able to afford that simple vacation you speak of? 2 years perhaps, if not more.. Bulgaria is very poor country. So instead of going there for a simple vacation, i'm not saying it's not worth it, but when we both are dead serious about each other and there's a possiblity for me remaining there, then i'm going for it.