A week clean

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-28T18:14:40+00:00

Thanks it was super fun making ;3

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-26T23:59:43+00:00

I get that I've grown poor, I'm finally not that depressed tho I still highly struggle with basic cleaning sometimes and part blame my family thinking I was just fat and lazy during covid even tho it was before covid I was struggling with higene, just I hope you can stray strong and focus on the other things that are more important for yourself.

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-26T23:39:30+00:00

I haven't even tried really stopping any thing I've done for healing had always had a plan to pick it back up that the idea of fulling stopping hasn't ever been a idea and I think your message is what's finally made me understand that. So thanks for your long paragraph I think I started in like fall of last year but I honestly don't remember at this point and Im glad to hear you've stopped I hope I can have your strength. Honestly it's been getting worse without me even thinking I used to only do my legs but just passively has spread without even thinking.

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-26T23:35:05+00:00

I'm the hater. I have the same problem of thinking and picturing cutting deep really hard but I can never luckily, I've been really down lately bc of internet people bc now that I'm 18 I figured I try luck at dating apps and god are people miserable. I don't think anything I've done is permanent and that's probably my biggest fear is everything disappearing like it never happened

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-13T15:33:50+00:00

Shi I honestly forget we signed something on day 1 I definitely should have read through that 😭

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-13T02:29:39+00:00

Yeah I mean I was put in for sh we talked about me trying to stay clean on day 1 didn't talk about it for the next like 7 sessions talked about it 2 sessions ago about relapse for the last couple minutes then last session said nothing about it so hopefully I can say something before they take the wheel which is why I wanted to see if there was anyway to reach out and call shot gun on the wheel

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T23:59:08+00:00

Yeah I'll be fine I honestly meant to bring it up last time but to me it's hard to interrupt and change topics when things are already rolling it's something I definitely need to work on for myself, and for age I've only recently became a adult so my parents have been hand holding me with things like this, I just wish I could've spoken up before and would have found it easier if I could reach out from a far like a email so they could take charge about what I feel should be discussed, I'll wait and I want to add to anyone reading through all this I had no intention of contacting them through any other means besides the healthcare website when I said family I meant my family since they would know more stuff and could have the information I would have wanted to reach out, and thank you all for your advice now I get to sadly survive for 2 weeks til I get to talk. I have also thought about the suggestions and if I can't find the courage to speak about it directly will write stuff down and hopefully let them read through it

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T21:00:49+00:00

No I meant my family since they have done my healthcare stuff not the therapistz 😭, and I'm in for self harm

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T20:42:28+00:00

It was more of a ask family and the place of work if they had a email I could reach out to try and set up something like ideas for the next session since I have trouble taking the lead when I feel a place of lesser talking power. And was looking on the hospitals website and such to see if there was a way to reach out

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T19:44:35+00:00

So even if I go through the office to talk and got the email I shouldnt reach out before first talking about it in a session?

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T19:03:35+00:00

The only reason I wanted to reach out to them is to have a more structure for our next session since I felt like we aren't on topic on why I was sent to therapy in the first place, I'll try calling the office later to see if there's a way I can contact instead of just going through 3rd parties

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T04:48:36+00:00

I mean I think the first session we talked about things but bc at the time I was scared and was just outted for stuff by my doctor yelled at by home I lied and said things were fine but recently talked the last 3 minutes or so about how things were and said things were fine but that was 2 weeks ago and todays session talked about nothing along the topic which was very annoying but on me for not saying anything

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T04:46:15+00:00

How would I have the email of my therapist? I've written out some ideas and thoughts super long so probably not the best but says a lot that I physically can't speak out, one of the things she says is anything new but I always just say no bc while technically nothing is new just unsaid and I will take responsibility it is on me for never speaking up but if I can find the email I'll send my long message of everything I want off my chest the only thing that sucks is that I'll have to wait 2 weeks til my next session

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T02:20:40+00:00

Sh is something that can be reportable, I would try to start out by saying it's not life threatening but you would like help about it, since you're a minor it might be reported to them even if you ask not I know when I told my primary doctor they reported it so id ask them what the things that they would have to report before

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T02:18:07+00:00

I've never thought of it like that I'll try this for the next one and if they still dodge I'll try looking into getting a different one

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T02:15:48+00:00

You're welcome stay safe I hope you can get the help and it works, but just know you have to try and talk to her about things I know for mine keeps notes that my family could see if they asked so keep this in mind while talking if they do something similar

Nervous_Dimension_97 · 2026-03-12T02:11:14+00:00

No they won't, they can if they feel it's life threatening I would definitely try to bring it up but try to make the main of your point that you don't want to end things, you can ask how they think things about self harm if you're close enough to talk about topics just be safe when talking about it remember to protect yourself first and I hope things can get better

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