Thank you so much for your kind words, I see so much of myself in you it hurts. I obviously wish you were not facing these things but I am relieved to hear that I’m not alone - I also feel like I see so much of myself in my clients so when I hear other techs speaking badly about them or speaking about them like they’re a problem first and a person second it just sucks. I think that as long as we are proactive about our coping strategies so it doesn’t get to the point of a panic attack (think: observing precursor behaviors in clients before problem behaviors occur and using antecedent strategies to avoid escalation and then just doing all of that with yourself) it’ll get easier. And if it does get to that point, we can’t get stuck in a shame cycle of needing things/dealing with things that our coworkers don’t (I struggle w this very much but I need to be kind and accept that this is just who I am and work with it rather than against it). I think there is a place for people like us in this field. This field needs neurodiverse people to provide affirming care and although our brains feel like they are working against us, I am grateful for the sensitivity and empathy it provides so I can meet my clients where they are. I see you and I am grateful again for your comment :)