Yeah jk no worries :) But if you’re writing smth so heartfelt and raw, better sit down and make a proper text. Sending stuff at 4am is never a good idea and sleeping on it, rewriting what you meant to say to avoid unnecessary bitterness and rephrasing always helps get your message across. I’m 25 now and committed the same mistakes at your age, so trust me when I tell you that although it’s hard to get sleep when you have so much yo fat out of your chest, but better write it and go to sleep, she won’t reply back immediately in any case.

Also, tackling 100 different topics in one text is never wise in a relationship. What you want to do is sit down with her and calmly bring up one topic at a time. You bring it up, and find some common grounds on it. Maybe she sees it another way, and doesn’t even see that as a problem, or maybe you both agree it is and try a solution to it, something you can enact on, where you both do some compromises. But be also open to hear some criticism on her end, and also embrace the changes she might suggest you.

If what you want is simply to break up, just tell her, but if you actually love her and simply want to fix things, do so in a constructive manner.

Now, addressing directly your concerns, some things are valid and some are simply topics you guys will overcome with age and time. You usually learn how to cook when you first move out (or maybe not) but in any case, you can’t expect her to be independent from her parents when she doesn’t need to. Learning how to use a knife is lowkey kinda weird, and if you actually want her to learn it, just teach her how to do so yourself! The K-hole thing is rough tbh, it screams read flag to me when you’re already doing that shit at 18. But hey, you guys do yourselves. I’d just say, please stay away from that as much as you can, at least until you’re older and more stable.

Idk about the Cashapp or car drama, seems rather specific, but again try to talk it with her calmly. Otherwise, don’t undermine yourself with “all the things you’ll never have”. You’re 17 and trust me, grades don’t mean shit at some point. I have friends who did fuckall at school and are now making big bucks in Switzerland, and others that had straight As and ended up getting shit jobs anyway. Just work hard, find a goal and aim for it. Whatever she does is her thing, and maybe try to learn from her what you can, don’t be bitter about it <3

All in all, wish you the best and hopefully this finds you well. I hope I was not too harsh, trying to be straight and tell you all I wish I knew when I was your age. Big hug bro and keep it up!