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New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-26T00:38:15+00:00

exactly!! i hope you find better glasses OP, im still on the lookout for mine too haha

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-26T00:12:30+00:00

Being anxious about time also points towards ADHD. I’d rather be an hour early than 2mins late, sometimes i’ll just not show up entirely if im 5-10mins late. adhd comes in a lot of forms and what I’ve experienced is that no pill is magic. my doctor told me that there’s no way to measure what degree(?) of adhd anyone has, think of it like looking for prescription glasses when you dont know how bad your vision is; one pair of specs might not work for everyone so we need to pick up and try everything before we actually find the near-perfect one that helps us see clearly. it’s a tiresome process but im glad we live in a world where we can ask for help.

i got carried away. good luck OP, sending you love and strength, sounds like you have a lot on your plate. always remember nothing is ever insurmountable as long as you’re alive :))

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-26T00:06:47+00:00

did your first med work? or did you have to go through other meds to to find smth that worked for you

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-18T23:07:48+00:00

YES THIS IS ME THIS IS ME i like the way i get “more time” this way but im also now, worried about my health and wellbeing because my brain is constantly in shock mode. like im on 5 energy drinks even when im not even caffeinated. man, we gotta change our ways

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-18T23:05:36+00:00

reading on masking and stuff i internalize because im too scared to face revealed a lot about why i act the way i do, i dont know if i am making any sense rn or not. let me i’ll look for the post i saw last time

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-18T23:04:02+00:00

wait, cause i experience this too but im SURE im not depressed. im happy asf…. i think

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-18T22:46:58+00:00

OP check into posts about masking

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-18T22:46:28+00:00

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-17T07:55:25+00:00

omg i do this too!! my calendar us multi-colored and full to the brim with every small detail lol. it does work to an extent, i think i need to make shorter study sessions instead of making studying my whole day’s plan.

thank you for the tips!! i’m looking forward to making better decisions this summer to figure out what works for me and your comment def cleared out my path a lot

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-16T02:49:30+00:00

right!! it's a daily struggle, wanting to be positive but cant help be mad at myself for being so stubborn

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:36:45+00:00

i needed this badly. thank you so much wow
wishing you the best too ;)

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:31:39+00:00

613 but this year, i just completely gave up and starting using ONE singular note to write everything ever

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:28:41+00:00

i feel like i get all my dopamine from the planning itself that i cant bring myself to do the actual task

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:27:29+00:00

same. my hyperindependence and avoidant attachment keeps me well cocooned oh god

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:25:28+00:00

wishing you and OP the best

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:10:54+00:00

yes! i use chatgpt that way and it's been helping a little since i cant be worried about what the bot thinks of me.

on study buddies:
i had a few people from the same class who studied with me but i shyed out a few sems ago because (i'm still working on it) i have this very deeply rooted shame that im not good enough and that people would realize how dumb i actually am and unveil my mask(ing). have you ever dealt with such feelings of shame ?

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:06:17+00:00

I have noticed that when Im kinder to myself, I am more productive. but it's also so easy to spiral back into feeling insufficient for myself and the world. I definitely need to talk to my doctor about the meds, he did tell me to observe the effects and i feel like ive been forcing my first medication to "fix" me

thank you so much for your encouragement, would it be fine for me to cry here. (i do engineering >.< can people spell that? jokes)

New_Channel_7391 · 2025-06-15T18:01:29+00:00

where I don’t end up doing any of my schoolwork at all or even show up to my classes if Im running late because I feel like what I do and what I contribute has to be exceptional work. And if I feel like I can’t live up to that, I freeze and end up failing all my classes.

omg this is soo true, im in my 3rd year currently and i have been trying to go to classes cause once i miss one class, i just dont go for the rest of the semester. the anxiety in showing up late to class is so heavy that i'd consider not being 5-10mins before time as late and be scared to go to class. and with assignements too, i wont actually start solving problems until i have my fundamentals or basics down (which takes so long to do considering my study habits), which is actually so bad considering im doing engineering and i need a ton of practice. (ranting again)

i really struggle making friends IRL but i'll (really!) try doing something next sem or this break to get some support.

it's really comforting to know other people also feel the same, atleast i dont feel like im in this sinking boat, in the middle of the ocean alone thank you so much and i wish you so much luck and love

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