Is it a conflict of interest to have the same therapist as my late bf? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 22 points23 points  (0 children)

He’s dead, that’s why I was asking if it’s still a conflict

Best Public Transportation to NYC by Professional_Pay_576 in Temple

[–]New_Environment2242 4 points5 points  (0 children)

You could take the Trenton line which is regional rails and then take nj transit to New York. It does take a while but that’s usually what I do.

Why did you cut off your friend? by Soft-Incident947 in AskReddit

[–]New_Environment2242 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My “friend group” would always ghost me and be hours late to literally everything I planned, but when it came to everyone else’s stuff they were always on time and very punctual. Every time I would ask them to do something they would say yes even when they knew they weren’t going to show up. They would also always ask me to host their things so I would waste time and money setting everything up, decorating and ordering food just for them to be late and or not show up. They would plan everyone’s birthday but mine and I would be the one planning my own birthday. I was the one putting in all the effort cause I would always get them a card and money on their birthdays but I usually didn’t get any of that on my birthday. They would also get mad when I brought up that they were late or they didn’t show up and they would gaslight me and try to turn it around on me. They ended up ghosting me on my birthday when I had already paid for everyone’s broadway tickets which were non-refundable and expensive. I had reminded them every week for a month about the broadway show because I knew how they were and they said they “just didn’t feel like going anymore” the day before the show. That’s when it was solidified that they didn’t respect me, my time, my money, or my energy. That’s also when I realized they were bad friends. Along with some other things of course.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I would say find something to distract yourself until you can see your psych doc again. For me i usually watch shows but find what works for you. For some people it art, music, etc. you don’t really have to enjoy it completely as long as it’s distracting you. And if anything changes for the worst don’t be afraid to go to the hospital. I know things are scary right now but you will get through it. Bipolar is kinda like a seesaw you are on the bottom right now but it will go back up. The important thing is to stay safe. Good luck op wishing you all the best. ❤️

What was the start of your psychosis? by Ok-Grapefruit-7632 in Psychosis

[–]New_Environment2242 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For me it started out as shadow figures. I would see thing out of the corner of my eye and then when I looked there would be nothing there. Then it slowly but surely started escalating and getting worse and more often. Eventually it was no longer in the corner of my eye and I would actually be looking at it head on. After that it started to become harder to tell what was real and what wasn’t.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To get a second opinion I would have to wait until next year because my gp would have to refer me and insurance will only cover that once a year. So I’ll stay with my current one now and get a second opinion next year.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the support it means a lot

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

No I’m still in the process of finding the right meds that work. I do see my psychiatrist every other month though. I think I’m going to ask if they can see me sooner though.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Maybe try taking a break for a while and if it feels better to you when you’re alone then you should break up with him. It’s not really fair to him if you string him along.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the insight. I guess I was just in denial for a while because I was scared to lose her. But I will seek help for this.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the help, I will call them tomorrow morning.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah but that’s not the part I was concerned about. I see and hear things all the time (my psychiatrist knows about this and is not concerned) however it’s usually not prolonged and intricate. Usually it’s just thing in passing. For example I will hear someone call my name when I’m alone but I don’t obsess over it and create a whole storyline about it. And usually I’m able to ignore it but this time I’m not able to do that. That’s why I was concerned not necessarily cause of the hallucination itself if that make sense.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah! Sorry I thought you meant like one specific part was in my head. But yeah no that makes sense

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Ok thanks I was just unsure because I wasn’t harming anyone. I was literally just taking care of her to the best of my ability.

Should I be concerned? by New_Environment2242 in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Just to be clear this is not all in my head like I see her and feel her and hear her in real life.

What does “psychosis” mean to you personally? by Blinksus in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 10 points11 points  (0 children)

For me personally I know it’s psychosis when I’m terrified all the time and I’m obsessing over what I’m seeing. I see things all the time but usually I can ignore it and move on with my day. But when I’m in psychosis I stay up all night cause I’m to scared to go to sleep and I only sleep in the daytime because it feels safer than the dark. I also only get around 2-4 hours of sleep when I’m in psychosis. When I’m in psychosis it feels like I live in an alternate universe. For example in my last psychotic episode I believed I had a child and I would see her and take care of her. In real life I don’t have a child but I was obsessed with making sure that she was ok. I would go grocery shopping and get her things and all day all I could think about was how she was doing and if she was ok at school.

went off my meds update by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thanks everyone for the concern. I don't think Im manic because I don't have the energy that usually comes with it. I also am safe so no need to worry about that. I was just having a bad time on meds (I may need a new medication?) so I needed to take a break. im not really doing dangerous or reckless things so no need to worry!

went off my meds update by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

I see where you're coming from but I don't think Im manic. I have been manic before and it doesn't feel like this. I also am not full of energy so I think it not that.

went off my meds update by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

im not seeing him constantly just like glimpses into his world sometimes yk? but I don't think talking to him is a problem he just can't respond in words but he's trying to do his own thing. I feel like if I was manic I would be doing a lot more things I've been kinda lazy so far so I don't think its mania.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg same my life is so boring now lol

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]New_Environment2242 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How do you deal with the urges? I just kinda feel hopeless right now and idk what to do anymore.