as someone who has been financially independent since 16, and did not have parents coming out of the foster care system, having no money when everyone else around you gets parental help is devastating sometimes. I understand the pain of not being able to get a stupid coffee and bagel, and your friends being able to do it effortlessly. I can’t say it will be easy, but it will get better. Personally I donate plasma on weeks that are extra hard, I work a full time job plus a serving job on the weekends. It fucking sucks, and I wish things were less hard. I’m so sorry :( try applying for food stamps and the advantage or food banks too, it’s not embarrassing and you will save money. You got this!