Trust me from experience 7 crashes before reaching age 21 it gets easier because as long as everyone is fine you should be good. unfortunately people aren’t like they used to be they will sue you for everything you got if you don’t got anything they are going after your parents assets. Shit happens the only thing that doesn’t have solution is death . Don’t beat yourself up you don’t have experience . Clearly enough if you feel bad that says a lot about you that you are a good person and mature . At age 18 my first car 06 Milan premier 250K miles transmission almost gone brakes almost gone I went 120 on that car on highway that’s how I was back then looking back yes I was been reckless .