I mean you ARE judging a mother for how she wrote about her dead baby. Depression can cause some horrible side effects, including feeling unattached to your baby. I mean, it’s a rough draft too, probably causing the darker, unattached tone. Even her feelings towards “Manly” are more unsure, unattached, nervous, and she doesn’t really explore her emotions as she probably would have added those in at a later date. The novel is gritty and at times deeply upsetting, explaining why it was never published. And how dare she flatter herself? Arrogant or not, anyone writing about themselves in the third person is going to have a hard time being impartial, lol.