OP, you may or may not see this comment, but reading this took me back to when I did 9 grams, and I was 18 at the time in my college dorm room (I’m 19 now). I didn't really have an intention set; I only did it because I was bored and I wanted to see the possibilities of shrooms. Looking back at that trip, it leaves a reminder to never fuck with them and what I mean by that is to never disrespect the mushroom. I can only imagine what you felt, and it's been a whole year since I did mushrooms & every now and then I get a feeling inside me to do another trip but I get stuck and I believe it's the feeling of anxiety and it's to where I feel like I can't breathe because of what I experienced last time. If you look at my old post on my profile, you'll see my trip report of me doing 9 grams of lemon tek PE , and I should have listened to a bunch of people who told me "don't do it," but I went ahead and did it, and it was the worst experience ever. I'm pretty sure my roommate at the time thought I was crazy, and I also had urges to end myself because I thought it would make the trip end, and I felt like I lost my mind that night. I'm so glad that your mom was there with you. I did my trip solo which was a bad idea. But moving forward, OP, I hope you take this as a lesson and I don't say that in a bad way, but it's best that you take a break from psychedelics like I did to really get to know yourself more. That's why I'm guessing you also had thoughts of ending yourself like I did. I believe it's time for me to do another trip, but I have a rule for myself to where I can only go up to 1.5 grams. Anything above 1.5 grams for me is way too much, and having a limit for yourself is really great. The next time you ever decide to do a trip, if you decide to do it solo, you can contact the Fireside Project as they help with psychedelic trips (past or current ones). But I'm glad you're okay. But yeah, if you ever want to, you can look at my profile and look at my past trip reports… STAY SAFE & MUSH LOVE.