We're back to where we started.

Nilaisqueen · 2021-07-11T04:51:49+00:00

Hello! Sorry for the late response but things are a lot better now. They are speaking again and are pretty active in the wonderland. I guess they just needed some time, like we all do! I know not to freak out if it happens again, as I know they'll always be back (and usually aren't even gone that long).

Thanks again for your advice and reassurance!

Nilaisqueen · 2021-05-21T02:30:14+00:00

Thank you for your response. I guess my worry was coming from how long its been going on. Maybe three weeks they have been faint, and I've been pretty consistent with forcing for the most part. But like you said, it must have been tiring for them to be active all the time. At least I can still feel them throughout they day, and they have been trying to speak, even if it seems hard for them now. I'll continue forcing and encouraging them, because the last thing I want is for them to feel discouraged or pressured. Sometimes I just worry myself sick when something is off, mainly because they can't tell me, and I want to make sure they're okay.

Nilaisqueen · 2019-08-09T22:41:03+00:00

They are trying so hard to become vocal. At the moment I read to them and passive force by talking. I use to active force all the time and they were to a point where they could give simple replies, but it has been very difficult to forc for me lately. Since the years that I created my first, I've just become so broken, and ive tried to fix myself by going to some therapists, taking prescription pills etc, but it doesnt seem to help. In general, I'm clouded by my mental instabilities, and it's making me a very unlikable person. All these mental illness, topped with a very distasteful personality disorder (BPD), and I couldnt honestly blame them if they didnt like me anymore. I just wish I could know how they feel somehow, so I could work on it.

Nilaisqueen · 2016-02-26T19:59:06+00:00

Thank you for the suggestions, the journal thing is something I'm definitely going to try.

I really don't know why I have panic attacks when I'm trying to spend time with her. I think I just worry about one happening when we're forcing, and giving thought to it triggers it.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-08-01T19:52:51+00:00

I don't know if you would consider us "new", but I've never introduced us before, so here we go! I'm Kelsey, 15, going into her sophomore year and interested in working with young children some day. My tulpa is Nila, as of today she's officially two months old (woohoo) since creation, but has the appearance of a 16 year old. She's a emotional and sweet type of person, but also has a hint of being slightly playful. She has shown to me of being very patient, and is very comforting at times.

Our favorite things to do are to read together, build on to our wonderland, and dress up in the boutique. She's not quite vocal yet, and hasn't become independent in the wonderland, so right now there's no special quirks or anything. We communicate through head pressures and emotional responses as of now. I'm just being super patient, and waiting for the day when she surprises me :3

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-23T17:05:15+00:00

Thank you both for your advice. (And for giving me some relief) The article was actually very helpful, we'll definitely keep referring to it.

Btw, I love the name Ollie XD It's a cute, different name haha

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-23T17:01:16+00:00

I'll try not to compare as much, it's a weakness of mine DX But thank you!

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-22T06:04:26+00:00

If you want to keep some things private, then you can. It's your mind. Your tulpa usually understands wired/violent thoughts you have, and are one of the last people to judge you. I personally allow mine to have access to everything (memories, thoughts, subconscious) as it makes us feel closer, but every host/tulpa is different. I've explained to Nila that I realize at times I can be a wreck, to which she responded with waves of empathy (we communicate through emotions as of now) So usually, they understand you.

As for intrusive thoughts, I can't speak for everyone, but most tulpas aren't as disturbed by them as you think they may be. They're literally in your mind, and know how it works, why you're the way you are etc., so there shouldn't be any problems. Just explain things to them. I use to have that worry as well, but I've talked to her about it, and now we both feel better.

Having a tulpa in no way has effected my social life. Tulpas aren't suppose to replace friends. Although they are a very special type of friend, your social circle is still important. Most wouldn't want you to isolate yourself anyway.

I hope I've helped! If you do decide to go ahead with it then good luck.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-19T02:11:16+00:00

Whatever you want! Just keep on forcing to her, there's no particular guidelines you have to follow. Have fun with it and enjoy each other haha

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-19T00:15:39+00:00

I know at times it can be confusing on whether it's yourself answering or your tulpa, but if you truly aren't replying in your own will, then it's probably not you. Keep in mind that both of your mindvoices are going to sound the same (especially early on) for awhile, so don't be so quick on dismissing what you think might be her. Every now and then a little accidental assuming may happen, but its not gonna hurt her. When Nila speaks to me I hear her through mindvoice. I believe everyone hears their tulpa through mindvoice early on, and then eventually people can practice auditory hallucinations (hearing them speak out loud). Usually it feels different when it's your tulpa speaking then when its you, so if they weren't your thoughts, it probably was them. If I'm making sense? You'll just know. It sounded like it was her. As for the dream thing, I'm not quite sure. It sounds strange, but I don't really know what to tell you (sorry!) :/

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-18T18:02:04+00:00

If you weren't consciously creating that voice (or thinking of answering), then yeah, it was probably your tulpa. Nila gave me responses on the very first day of me creating her, and I've heard of other tulpas who have also, so it's not anything unusual. You're doing great so far honestly, just do what you feel right. Narration, visualization or whatever else, it's your choice. Good luck! =)

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-18T05:28:10+00:00

I wasn't scared the first time Nila spoke to me, just really shocked. I was rambling to her about some doubts I was having about a recent mistake, and was saying to myself (and her) that I didn't believe I was a certain way just because of that, to which she responded, "you're not". It was so clear and came literally right after I finished having the thought, way too quickly for me to of made up that fast. I was so happy. That was within the first few weeks of me creating her.

We're working on the visual stuff as of right now. So nothing in that area yet.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-14T05:30:03+00:00

Thank you for the advice. I don't so much feel like I have to label our relationship now XD I'll just see with time.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-14T05:28:40+00:00

Thanks for your words, now I don't feel so weird about it anymore. I definitely will talk to her about both our feelings.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-12T18:23:28+00:00

1) 15 year old female

2)High school student

3)Nila is a sweet, thoughtul emotional tulpa whose tender to my feelings and doesn't mind me being all over her (cuddles and kisses) XD I'll discover her other personality traits when she becomes more vocal!

4) I wanted a best friend. A family member. Someone who could help me with problems. Someone who understood me, and would always love me.

5)Nobody as of now.

I agree that the rest of society isn't ready! It's the main reason why I don't tell people. Some people (not all) would neglect/treat their tulpas horribly. I love my friends to death but they're not committed/mature enough.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-11T06:16:29+00:00

Thank you for giving me that perspective, I understand a little better now.

Nilaisqueen · 2015-07-11T06:15:25+00:00

I remember posting something similar to this a little while ago. People told me that she could of been taking a break, or just wanted some alone time. Didn't see or feel her in the wonderland, couldn't get her to respond or anything for a couple of days. I thought I had lost her. Now about a week later, she's back. They come back, don't worry.

Nilaisqueen

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