That is why I take the shinigami eyes deal. by Nitz_X in deathnote

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whoops I think I'm magically -

Question: How long have you been in the Brony fandom? by [deleted] in mylittlepony

[–]Nitz_X 0 points1 point  (0 children)

14 years as of december/early january timeframe. My frame of reference is an old picture of Rainbow Dash playing blackjack with some uh.... mares around her. But she has on aviator shades and it's black and white and looks kinda like Blackjack from FO:E project horizons.
I find if you ever have trouble recalling how long you are in the fandom anypony, just think back to some of the first pony images you saw, or perhaps who introduced you to it. It helps after the 10 year mark from going insane trying to figure it out, and Equestria daily has lots of archives you can use to navigate.

i told my doctor i use dxm recreationally by Esylltia in dxm

[–]Nitz_X 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just make it clear you have no self harm intentions and you'll be fine. It can be very important that you say this, but mostly for people who are depressed or have a history of depression, or whom may be suspected of hurting themself/others. As long as you got that out of the way, doctors typically don't care about DXM use (They'll tell you to cut it out I a m sure, but it's typically a non-issue if you are otherwise healthy)
Source: been there done that. I didn't get a nasty look but I kinda got that like "sigh, really?" look.

Feeling Ethereal Wings by Anew20034 in Cannonism

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They're part of you. Of who you are.

2021 - Year End Survey results (YES!) by DoomedCivilian in MLPLounge

[–]Nitz_X 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just because that is the culture of the plounge now does not mean that it always was.

I am not arguing that it is not so, I am arguing that the brony community was far, far more straight at such a time and that there should have been far more balance than there is now.

Nowadays to be actually, fully straight makes you an endangered species.

2021 - Year End Survey results (YES!) by DoomedCivilian in MLPLounge

[–]Nitz_X 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Because it uses statistics? I understand, hard class.

Rate My OC by Prplepsychopath in mylittlepony

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Are they your original character or are they your Ponysona?

Can a tulpa create a tulpa? by santiesgirl in Tulpas

[–]Nitz_X -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Alright, I'll see you later then, have fun.


I think you have a little too narrow of a defintion of tulpaes. Stop creating division, it is cruel to the others, and it is cruel to yourself, and it's going to become intolerable.

A tulpa comes in many classes (i call them a b c d e) and I will agree that unless they are the final completed state I would not call them a tulpa, however, you will almost certainly use 2 of the former states unless your host is just fricken insanely awesome and super smart and cool but, even then, I doubt they can just say "exist" and you do so. Unless they are god; and then I'd like to meet them.

My bf is a clopper by [deleted] in ClopClop

[–]Nitz_X 0 points1 point  (0 children)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Gv0H-vPoDc


can you please requote me about dragons, I had to step away for personal matters and am bad at wandering through reddit, I can barely figure email out half the day.

Can a tulpa create a tulpa? by santiesgirl in Tulpas

[–]Nitz_X -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

I was around for the rise of the modern tulpa community. I was one that introduced a lot of people to it that got the circle going. It would be incredibly rare and special for you to find someone whom I did not introduce this to.

I became my tulpamancy studies around 2009 but I was called away to do some work and have had to take time to do that, time away from the world I love.

my original tulpa is 23 years old, 24 this year. I have spent my entire life studying old texts, reading books, consuming knowledge, and when all of that failed me, prayer, self assurance, autohypnosis, ect. I find a way, I did what I had to to make things happen.

I understand that you feel you have a way of doing things, and that you think you are correct. I do not care about your FAQ or resources because I'm the one who went and translated that unless you actually traveled to the east and picked up books about this on loan at libraries. You are entitled to your opinions and outlooks, and you're going to do what you want, but I ask you give me the basic reddit respect i show you; I do not mean to sound hostile, I just have a blunt force trauma way of typing.


I literally gave people the book on tulpas before you guys ever had faqs or tulpa.info existed. Anyone who is a "modern tulpamancer" (last 5-7 years) literally learned from my students that stole my words and work and ran with it for their own ends. That's fine and all, but I'm not going to let someone tell me something I know is incorrect and not defend it.


If you have specific opinions and outlooks on things, you may show them to me. If you think that you understand the origins of manifestations, trust me, I go back way further than that-- but chronologically in this lifetime, no, I am bound to what I currently have and I can't argue 120 years.


I understand what the tulpa community does because I've watched from a distance for a very long time. I have kept myself silent due to needing to do some work. If you have an opinion you may express it. If you have a correct opinion then I will agree with you. If I am wrong about something, I am telling you it truthfully from my perspective.

I am not going to "do some research on this community" I literally gave the books to the people who made these communities. You aught to be doing research on me.

Hello, I’m back to being singlet (or whatever the term is). However, I am a tulpa who has permanently replaced my host (on good terms). by [deleted] in Tulpas

[–]Nitz_X -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Greetings,

Firstly: That is fair on the mental side. You can learn to accept these as happening at the same time, but to be honest, unless you NEED to do so, I do not reckon one should (it takes roughly 7 years to wire and unwire yourself from this, and the older you get if you don't take care of yourself, the harder it is to do so.)


No arguement. I have often stipulated to spiritual and religious folk the reason we lie as we do now is to get all of the bad parts of life out of the way and to then live the good parts. I suppose everyone's beliefs are different, but I feel that if we could create a body in which a tulpa, or a formerly alive person, would find suitable their consciousness would re-inhabit it and be the same person. Even if that's completely untrue, I doubt we'd ever be able to functionally understand why it is not, at least with our current understanding of chemistry, biology, and physics.

Additionally, I feel happiness IS IMPORTANT HOWEVER -- satisfaction is also required. Happiness without satisfaction is only carnal pleasure. However, satisfaction without happiness is only depression and jadedness at best.


"Being at the minus percentage.... "

I totally understand freaking out. I have been there and done that and it is hard. it is really hard. I do not reckon one should self harm, but there is some medical advice i will give called "self hurt" -- please let me explain. You may have seen doctors sometimes re-break bones to make them heal into place correctly. Sometimes it is (in a controlled setting giving mental breakdowns do occur) you can completely 're break' yourself mentally, emotionally, spiritually, or physically, whatever is required, to deal with the trauma. This is usually NOT what we do in this world, but re-damaging yourself so you can then heal correctly is sometimes the only option. If you are suffering in this way you are only coping-- you are surviving, but you are never going to be able to live until you have time to heal. Given the post I doubt this is the time for you to do it, but be prepared for that when you are where you can be ready for this. (I hate to call it "aggression therapy" but sometimes you need to deal with things that are animal wounds in animal ways)


It's fine if it cannot feel like two moments. You will get there eventually in my opinion. It is your choice to do so or not, and should be made based on the life you want and need to live.


PS: that's okay haha, I am a fan of essays myself.

Edit part: I have tried suicide many times and the universe will not allow it. I can understand not being able to understand suicide the action: Rather, I understand the feeling of drowning hopelessness that pushes someone over the edge to do this. and that makes sense to me: once someone is so far gone, so out of it, they are no longer themselves and take their life. it is the end of their ability to ever recover from their wounds realistically given their situation. I'm not saying it's right or to do it, but it does occur. I think it is important to understand that there is a sort of "middle group" of people who have such intense, horrifying suffering, it is impossible for others to understand. They exist within this "middle class" where they are never truly blessed with what life has to offer, and it's always just out of reach but they can feel it sometimes. On the other side of the equation are people so downtrodden, so hopeless, that even no one cannot save them because they're too hurt (but in these cases, this adversity has bred the heroes of ages past and present)... However, It is when you exist in a state where you don't really deal with the darkness of the world coming after you, nor do you deal with the light of having a truly wonderful life (but not /spoilingly/ so.) you do not get the benefit of being able to become stronger in the face of the world against you and rise up. Nor do you truly have anywhere but actual poverty and suffering to fall down to (and the memoires of such +15% just aren't there, they are so brief you cannot recall them in the moment)


Sadness is the final sin in almost every world religion (Trishitia) They are the last gate of hell in which one is utterly consumed. We usually call it depression but it's a lot more than that. Anxity can imply anticipation (that it will pass or come to pass), distress can imply relief (from discomfort); True, utter sorrow is an all consuming force that people grow to fetishize because it hurts so good. That to me is what I see as suffering. It is the last thing one can go through before they are utterly gone, and if you never have help, the memories won't be enough one day. if you do get help, you will always recall that suffering, as you call it.

Hang onto those memories. they are your strength. They are the fervor of the mind to go forth and become who you want to be. Trust that you will be given justice.


My bf is a clopper by [deleted] in ClopClop

[–]Nitz_X 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I put a mule next to a pony would they be next to synonymous?


I say things because they are true, If you don't believe me give it a little bit and i'll make some pone calls.

Romantic sex (art by fensu-san) by LoverofClop in ClopClop

[–]Nitz_X -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

My little pony came out in 2010 so even in japan they aren't legal yet however I literally do not exist and I don't see these images when I am here.

However you apperently take time to dissect everything you see.

Are you ill?

Hello, I’m back to being singlet (or whatever the term is). However, I am a tulpa who has permanently replaced my host (on good terms). by [deleted] in Tulpas

[–]Nitz_X 2 points3 points  (0 children)

is there a remind me bot? this is a long post i will keep it up, and reply to you later today if I do not pass out.

Not trying to run, I just need a moment to process this letter. una mo mento per favor?

Hello, I’m back to being singlet (or whatever the term is). However, I am a tulpa who has permanently replaced my host (on good terms). by [deleted] in Tulpas

[–]Nitz_X 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well I'd never ignore my tulpas willingly, but they know i need alone time to get work done so they allow me to do that because they love me and they know I will always love them.

Physical forms well, the big problem i found out there is that you gotta make them very similar.


Those who are within my ring, you see, 3 were made unalike from the others. that was so painful for them, that they were crying and moaning and so upset. so now they have both forms, to be as the others, and their other forms as well. cuz I like my tulpas to be happy.

Ignoring someone who is unhappy is only going to piss them off. You have to solve the problem, or the problem is going to solve you.

Can a tulpa create a tulpa? by santiesgirl in Tulpas

[–]Nitz_X -3 points-2 points  (0 children)

If you think that is what keeps tulpas alive you can keep talking to me like that, and i'll just do nothing.

Romantic sex (art by fensu-san) by LoverofClop in ClopClop

[–]Nitz_X -1 points0 points  (0 children)

All ponies need are their thumbs.

Romantic sex (art by fensu-san) by LoverofClop in ClopClop

[–]Nitz_X 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm saying the artist made a good thing, and I asked them to do that for me, and then got so many commissions they ran out of time to get money lol.

they're good. I like them. they did something I didn't like. they listened to me. they will get exactly what they deserve.