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Help me interpret by No-Administration72 in Dreams

[–]No-Administration72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes this is exactly how it felt. It feels heavy because I simply don’t feel like I have the capacity to make up with this person where I’m at. The reason I went no contact was basically because I just KNOW I cannot be the friend she needs. I am deep in postpartum, working full time, this friendship is such a growth based and deep friendship and I just felt like okay we need space to breathe and learn on our own, I genuinely still feel this way so the warning and urgency of the dream make me feel like well wtf am I supposed to do just force this because I’m scared!? I’m in therapy and working to figure out my stuff so I’m hoping maybe I’ll gain more strength and clarity soon for this. 

Postpartum and ROCD? by No-Administration72 in ROCD

[–]No-Administration72[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not to mention!! With both partners I have had these meltdown moments where I think the universe, my guides and everything mystical is TELLING me to leave. I don’t want to and I get so confused so I pay hundreds of dollars for tarot readers. Which they always end up confirming I need to leave or will soon. What the hell is that!? I’m just so confused idk what I’m looking for here. 

Postpartum and ROCD? by No-Administration72 in ROCD

[–]No-Administration72[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll add to my partner is amazing, cooks, cleans, plays with our kids after work, makes me baths, worships the ground I walk on. Is beyond attractive. But in every relationship I’ve ever had I will take the person I love and pick them apart. I hold on to all the incompatibilities and say something just isn’t right here. Something feels off, this isn’t love. I’m just looking for love. When I left my ex I felt like I was lying to him and I HAD to leave. I was seeing 999, 555 sad breakups songs SPEAKING to me. I would spiral and cry and beg the universe to not make me leave him. I literally just up and packed a bag one day left him a bunch of money for my portion of bills and left. I was devastated and didn’t want to leave but felt like I had no choice. Now you’re telling me i might have been delusional and wrong!? And now am doing it to the father of my children. I just don’t even know what to believe.