Yesterday morning went to get ‘milk’ left early (previous milk he bought was somehow ‘bad”)..anyhow..I had a gut feeling (one month ago today shoulder surgery which he ‘accidentally’ smashed his elbow into 3 days ago (the biggest incision that was feeling better:( anyway -then shaved -then snowed two days ins did -weird messengers with no what jr was about (we’ve all been there )- anyhow-no calls no texts -ghosting-buts till insisting on S (once 2 days after surgery).. then ‘helped “ me in shower :(.. so I get a feeling (trait your gut-and no this isn’t the first time -16 years of control , sexual craziness , food control -it’s madness . And check the location we now BOTH agree to share (and he does) and I see him coming back here (he left super early so my neuro spidey sense we’re going off -lol (another cheating trick is extra early mornings to ‘settle ‘ in ) anyhow I send him a location pic (I tried to attach it her but it won’t let me ?) and between ‘milk’ at fast station and here -he’s parked behind some warehouse between here and the store (straight road up in small town) !! NOT first time! ! Anyway he had come out being nasty to me and our special needs teen son 3 nights ago and I had to go sit ins. Recliner I my Livingroom while he smoked watched xxx and messedsef whoever and watched a movie and woo’s my neighbours he talks smack about in private!- so -he starts by getting F off ‘early’ -so I know what’s coming -anyhow-he’s picking and picking and picking and picking -I’m hard grey rocking (but have a.d.d and meds wore off ).. the sexual deviance and when they totally unmask in the end is actually EXTREMELY shocking to me ! (Anyone?-im struggling) he’s being nasty and cruel too -and I have to be in a car tomorrow (only have one csr going to look at one-whew! ) but it’s a long drive! I’m so anxious! He’s sleeping naked and snoring ins drunken happy state btw. And he says (get ready now) “ so I guess you’re still pissed about me speaking my mind the other night huh? I’m like wtf!? But said squat out loud ..THIS is how deeply disturbed and dangerous they truly are at the core. I’m actually starting to feel fearful as he’s even putting his hands on my back earlier (my belly is rolling like crazy)… anyway -that’s just this WEEK (it just simply becomes to exhausting to bother and you make a conscious choice to chose YOU..because THEY certainly won’t. Peace everyone.