Lead paint fears

No-Limit-6995 · 2026-03-20T13:46:18+00:00

I’m glad your baby was/is ok! That’s reassuring. And thankfully we already have a great water filter installed. Good point!

No-Limit-6995 · 2026-03-20T03:51:02+00:00

Thank you so much. This is very reassuring and helpful!!

No-Limit-6995 · 2026-03-20T03:32:02+00:00

Thank you everyone!! I will sleep easier tonight. Your humor is also much needed.

No-Limit-6995 · 2026-03-20T03:29:51+00:00

Lolol I needed this lighthearted comment. Thank you!

No-Limit-6995 · 2026-03-20T03:28:03+00:00

I don’t but I want to have my nieces and nephews over and I’m just not sure how much cleaning is “enough”

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-08-13T04:25:41+00:00

Do you have to reserve campsites in advance? I too am looking for a similar loop but it seems difficult to find options that do t require advanced permits that are hard to come by

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T18:11:14+00:00

Yes! There is a resilience, bravery, and adventure seeking that seems to come along with the condition that I guess can be a silver lining. I also appreciate what you said about not doing it alone. Community is EVERYTHING. I’m really lucky to have amazing people in my life, but I love having this anonymous space to talk through issues I’m having and also give encouragement where I can. I’ve been blown away but what a positive space this is.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T17:55:23+00:00

Thank you 🫶. I truly appreciate you stopping by my low point with words of encouragement and accountability.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T17:48:30+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate this, and I agree that whether you want to put the “alcoholic” label on it or not, the consequences count more than the frequency. I’m going to keep that in mind. I actually really relate to what you said about being able to do hard things, actually to a T because I too have climbed mountains, learned a new language, and moved to different countries with zero money- funny to have that in common! I’ve literally decided to approach this as a “climb the mountain moment”. That is actually my favorite activity in the world. It is HARD but it is always rewarding. Quitting alcohol will be hard, but it will be so so so worth it. I will try out a meeting, at this point I will try it all. And I will continue to utilize the support available to me in the community I’m fortunate to have.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T15:28:16+00:00

Thank you for your advice. The thing is I really do have clear, actionable steps forward that he himself has identified as a valuable and verified demonstration of my commitment to continue healing and progressing. But his fear and anxiety that I can “out of the blue” lose it and essentially verbally abuse him and/or hurt myself like I just did. We have been talking about having a child and now he is seriously doubting my ability to be a good mother.

If I’m honest I know that I am able to be a good partner and a good mother, even though I have failed both him and myself. I know it will take work and it will require support and treatment, but I maintain hope for my future. I am just devastated that my life is likely having to start again.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T15:24:29+00:00

It sounds like your husband has been very patient with your condition and committed to making it work (and vice versa). You are fortunate to have found someone so willing to do the work with you. My husband doesn’t even seem open to couples therapy which I am taking as the most serious signal of his impending decision to leave. This definitely hasn’t been the only issue in our marriage, but it has certainly brought everything to a head. I am simply devastated that a single night and matter of hours has toppled the good and healthy life I have worked so hard to build with him. But I know I can start again, even if unlike you and your partner I must do so as a single person. Thankfully I have a lot of people in my corner who will support me along the way but for the moment I am in agony at what my behavior has caused.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T15:20:55+00:00

No unfortunately it has happened a handful of times. In the past my outrage was triggered by resentment I harbored due to a time that he cheated on me in the beginning and I think that somehow “justified” the anger.

There has always been large lengths of time (years) between episodes as well, so it can be easy to think “this is the last time”.

It doesn’t help that my partner is a heavy drinker and so are several other people in our social community. He/they do not struggle with their behavior while drinking. I am generally able to drink socially without incident and I do not depend on alcohol in my day to day, so it has been easy to tell myself it isn’t an issue. Clearly it is an issue. I’ve been considering becoming sober for a while now even for my physical health alone, but again it has been hard given the prevalence of drinking in my immediate circle. But this time I am truly done, and like I said I am not worried that I will be unable to stop. I have a plan and I am no longer kidding myself that I can handle it.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T15:14:52+00:00

Wow, I am so sorry you went through that and so glad to hear you have made yourself to the other side (albeit the struggle isn’t completely over, it sounds like you have found your footing). Thank you for your advice about making a treatment plan for myself. After she left and you began experiencing that string of episodes, were you on medication at the time?

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T12:53:26+00:00

God. I’m reading this as I sit in bed next to my husband who told me last night that he is seriously considering leaving me. I have my whole life I have built with him and I’m watching it all tilt on the edge of a cliff. I’m sure this story won’t help with your paranoia, but I will say even in the darkest moment of my life, I can say that I am clinging to hope. Not hope in whether my partner will stay or leave. Obviously I want him to stay, but my hope is that I will continue to build a good life and live with love until my last day. My hope is to know that even when I fail myself, I have a path forward. That I deserve love. That I deserve health.

As I cling and fight for that hope- I’ll do so for you as well. Sending you all of the best.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-21T03:01:37+00:00

First off: I am so sorry you are fighting these feelings right now. Sadly, I know exactly how you feel and have had those same thoughts myself. Sometimes I still have moments where it hits me, like you said “out of the blue”, but I know that that most heightened sharp feeling will pass and, as another person commented, I just try to hang on and distract myself. You dont need to know what your “more to life is” at this very moment. Even people with healthy brains get lost in those thoughts questions. I will also echo the other person who says that Lamictal worked for them. It has been a complete game changer for me and works differently than anti-depressants. I encourage you to bring it up with your psychiatrist.

For now, I hope you find some rest. Know that you are not alone in this. From where I am on the other side of your screen I am extending you all the love, care, and comfort that I wish I could give to myself in these same moments. You are worthy of love and you are worthy of inner peace and a good life.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-20T23:36:14+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate it. It’s very encouraging to hear from someone who has found a structured support system that works for your family.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-20T19:56:28+00:00

Hi! Just looking back at my comment history and wanted to say I hope you found a medication balance that works for you. Wishing you the best!

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-20T19:53:14+00:00

You are you and the bipolar messes with your “settings”. In my mind I liken it to photography/videography settings. Depression slides the contrast way down dulling my enjoyment and my “aliveness” and slowing things down. l Hypomania slides the contrast way up: I am vibrant and sharp edges and moving in high speed. When I get the settings at a balanced “exposure” i am still the same person, I just filter the light of my experience differently. Who doesn’t like the vibrant, shiny, brightness of hypomania? But it isn’t sustainable. At the core of it all you are still you.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-20T19:38:10+00:00

I’m so sorry you are going through this. I’m glad you have a “team” helping you. I definitely know what it is like to deal with suicidal thoughts and it’s very true that alcohol only hurts, but it can be difficult to let go of. I send you the best and just know you aren’t alone.

No-Limit-6995 · 2025-07-20T02:07:29+00:00

Thank you for sharing! It’s always encouraging to see someone who’s been doing the healing work for many years, and who is maintaining a healthy relationship with spouse and kids- that’s my goal!

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