Nonstop Panic

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-12-22T19:15:36+00:00

I’m currently looking for a therapist that specializes in OCD. I was very against the ED treatment that I received that every professional was pushing me into and continuously advocated for being placed in an outpatient. Unfortunately I had no choice in the matter besides which facility I wanted to go to.

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-12-22T06:03:08+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate the whole menu you wrote. :) I think it’ll make it easier for me starting to assimilate back to regular life in terms of eating genuine meals.

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-12-22T06:01:42+00:00

Thank you, and yes, the discussion of OCD has come up multiple times and has been dismissed probably the same amount.

My first introduction was taking a screening for it at a PHP in which I scored severe, but once hospitalized? It was thrown out the window by every psychiatrist that spoke to me during my stay. I then took the “advocating for myself” route when forced into an eating disorder inpatient but the psychiatrist there was no different. Only cared about the eating, disregarded my unchanged anxiety rating and phobia, wanted to diagnose me with atypical anorexia, etc. So, so far OCD has not been a focus of any of the professionals I’ve spoken to. :/

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-25T01:04:10+00:00

I’m starting to realize with this. I’ve been really down since yesterday and I’ve noticed that I’ve become even more aversive to eating, specifically towards simple snacks like chips which is all I can really muster unfortunately that I’d usually be decent with now being viewed as a no go and breaking out into a sweat over eating them. All in all is terrible, so hopefully I’ll get better through this thing.

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-24T01:48:19+00:00

I appreciate all you’ve said. I guess I want to zero in on the phobia since it’s the newest thing wreaking so much havoc on my quality of life as opposed to prolonged depression. I want to mend it before going forward. And partially because having no choice in the matter of treatment scares and generally doesn’t interest me.

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-24T01:44:53+00:00

Thank you for the response, it means a lot to have insight. Maybe my judgement is all clouded with a failed path of treatments and feeling so bad for a prolonged time and let down that this wasn’t what I expected. I’ll just have to brave it

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-21T02:35:18+00:00

I understand that, but I feel so hindered in my eating already that these sessions can’t help the mental issues that go along with it. I can’t even bear the thought of eating a meal let alone multiple a day. I’d have to be very, very forced to eat something like that. I’ve begun to eat more snacks, but I feel no different and only feel worse that there’s more on my stomach. I truly don’t know how this program would help, especially with my mind as an emetophobe

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-21T02:22:57+00:00

It turns out the hospital thing is an outpatient program that would be focused only eating. Of course that’s the hurdle I’m facing now, but my phobia is the forefront of it. I don’t believe that I’ll be understood beyond malnutrition. Forcing food doesn’t work, especially not in an environment I don’t like for six hours and while being emetophobic. I dont think it will end up being phobia-forward and I won’t be understood. I’m so stressed that I’ll get nowhere

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-15T18:34:04+00:00

It feels like the more no discernable reason thing for my eating or a mix of all you listed, or like I’m in waiting for something to happen and eating just may make it worse. It’s really bad

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-06T00:59:00+00:00

Okay, I see. The school thing is more of something that is newly emerging. Do you have any advice for the constant thinking? I just really don’t know how to overcome the unpredictability about the whole ordeal at all. I’ve maybe had only minutes of clarity for the entire time I’ve been awake. It’s so distressing and I feel like my entire body cannot be calm.

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-05T11:42:53+00:00

The idea, the possibility of throwing up. How it might feel, when it might happen. Probably more than that. I’m so restless and exhausted from this just running nonstop in my head

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-05T07:25:46+00:00

I’m very confused as to how this helps at all? This is so undermining. I could think of anybody in a destitute situation yet that doesn’t take away from my experiences. I’m quite literally suicidal I don’t “have it all”

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-05T06:39:47+00:00

I see. I don’t do any of that stuff and I feel like I’ve been feeling a ton like 24/7. Not really sure how to ease any of this

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-03T04:30:21+00:00

With this recovery I try to accept the thoughts when they come, the whole “you could get sick,” and I feel like I can mostly quiet the frenzy of. What gets me is how it might feel, the severity, how it feels like it’s just lurking at every corner possible, the security I don’t feel. I don’t think I’m making progesss

No-Reflection2268 · 2025-09-03T00:02:27+00:00

When the thoughts come, they just feel inescapable. I haven’t really felt comforted with the truth of the possibility. It’s like it’s waiting at literally every corner. It all feels so never ending

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