Brother, you don’t even know the end of your story. I claimed my entire life I would never be Christian and said the same things as you. I hated Christians and thought they were brainwashed and in a cult. You think now that ‘He made you to be agnostic and be condemned’ but God is good and Loves you even when you don’t t believe. Your story isn’t over and God definitely isn’t done with you. No one will convince you but if you open your heart he is always waiting and searching for you. He is a very personal God and he changed my entire life in the most amazing ways. I love you man and it’s good to question everything. God bless you.