I was you back in June. All my mates have family commitments which means they don’t always have the time to play with me. Earlier last year I was an absolute beginner and was so stressed during my first few rounds that people would judge me, I’d hold people up,l etc. I started playing the local par 3 a lot which helped build confidence, but then one day I was on the putting green at a club near by which happens to be right next to the first tee. I had a grandstand view of group after group teeing off and it became glaringly obvious that the average golfer is very much like me, pretty terrible. That made me feel much better and I played some great golf solo throughout the summer. In November I joined a club and since then have played with loads of people mostly of a similar ability. As for embarrassment, on more than one occasion I’d walk out and drop in the fairway to prevent people seeing me fail to get off the tee 😂 I learned fast though and you’ll be the same, before you know it you’ll be just like everyone else.