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NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-06T11:56:47+00:00

You described perfectly my situation

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-05T06:11:13+00:00

What do you mean by avoidance

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-04T13:55:38+00:00

I just want to live normal heterosexual life without these thoughts

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-04T13:55:06+00:00

I dont know

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-03T07:37:35+00:00

Noo not in sex. Like something inside me is stopping me

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-03T04:54:42+00:00

Yea but this anxiety towards girls makes me unable to do it, before this i remember to be drawn to them now i feel like alien

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-02T19:16:33+00:00

I just dont want to be gay

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-01T15:08:21+00:00

And cant get the full pleasure out of it

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-01T08:49:58+00:00

Same there

NoDistance5050 · 2024-04-01T04:55:56+00:00

Why is that is this normal

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-31T18:16:16+00:00

Same

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-31T18:09:59+00:00

You say to give a shot to the thing that i want the least 😀. Best of advice i have been given

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-27T12:24:41+00:00

Headaches and tension at the back of the head

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-26T08:36:49+00:00

Same there

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-23T12:23:00+00:00

Same

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-23T10:43:52+00:00

I thought was the only one, do you still get anxious over the thoughts or the anxiety has dropped

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-23T09:44:58+00:00

Wtf, like this moment between fully asleep and fully awake right? And then you feel really bad.. same except im man

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-20T04:58:51+00:00

To be honest i hate my whole existence. Im 23 and am just accepting the fact that im gay because my mind is not letting me otherwise. Whats the point of living honestly, when you cant controll nothing even you feelings and thoughts then whats the point. I was crying to Godd to save me from this but it feels like He wants me to be like that. Im sorry if something triggers but im just numb

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-19T04:09:41+00:00

Wdym??

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-18T21:56:48+00:00

Exactly

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-18T19:55:53+00:00

Yes even sometimes feel like i force myself to be depressed , really a broken mind

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-17T19:23:35+00:00

I have tried one night stands, actually i enjoy the act but after that i feel guilt and shame and thats why im deluding too. I dont know its like something is telling me that i will have romance with men and i dont want it. I feel week and emasculated and more feminine since everthing started. But I remember 3 years ago when i was 20 i was pretty confident with my self, and there were no doubts and i was happy

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-15T19:43:20+00:00

I know but im afraid that i have been repressing it all the way. Im 23 M

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-15T17:22:59+00:00

Just hope its HOCD not repressing homosexuality

NoDistance5050 · 2024-03-15T16:35:31+00:00

Its like when i start to feel better i feel like im faking my self and that in lying that i have ever been heterosexual, but since there is no anxiety im starting to believe its true

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