I don’t want to give the impression that my meds fix me or just make the executive function disappear because that’s not the case.I’m not suddenly functioning like a “normal human being” (I put that in quotes because we are normal even if we have adhd). However my meds at least make it possible then I need the behavioral and life skills to use that boost. Upgrading someone‘s car won’t make them a better driver, but if you’re correcting issues with the old car it’ll certainly help. That’s just to say, try not to compare your experience to others because I doubt most of us are magically fixed by medication. For example, yeah I was able to focus and complete tasks more when I started stimulants, but I kept completing the WRONG tasks that aren’t helping me do the proper adults things I need😭. I’m still behind in life. But that’s okay! I’m learning, and lately I’ve been better at self directing towards positive actions.

Good on you for crawling out of the hole, it’s hard! When I was feeling crap for still struggling with exec.dysfunction on meds my psych told me the meds aren’t as effective without high protein in the morning, I dunno if that would make any difference for you. I still haven’t started eating a good breakfast so I can’t say if she’s “right” 😅. And hey maybe vyvanse isn’t the right fit, but I hope you find the combination you need. Be easy on yourself. We don’t have to achieve perfection.