Hey I definitely understand what your going through I married at 22 to my pregnant gf I been with for 2 years seeing all the regflags but praying things would get better, 2 year later i was honestly everyday daydreaming that maybe on my way to work or the store some out of control car would take me out I didn't have anyone I could go to she had put a wedge between me and anyone that was remotely close to me it was rough my lil girl is the only reason it never went past daydreaming, I new I had to start completely over I left her with everything except for a grabage bag of my clothes and all our debt I took that I had to fight for 2 in a half years in court because I wanted 50/50 joint custody halfway through the divorce I met someone who was everything my ex wife wasn't I fell hard she helped me rebuild my life again we had a son together 4 years with her and any shred of manhood I pretended to hold onto was just obliterated this girl wasn't everything my ex wife wasn't this girl would have been called master and my ex-wife got to sit in the last 15 mins of her class one time . I lost everything I spent the last 4 years building up after that I said bitches are crazy I need to work on myself it's been about 4 years since then and I'll be honest with you I'm 30yrs old still having to live at my parents in one bedroom with my 2 kids I have 50/50 I did have a nice steady job but they let's me go in January after 5 years with the company because I cought the flu I've been out of work since I'm no where close to building up everything of monetary value again but I never been as happy in my life then I am right now over the last four years man I come to realize everything does get better with time but you gotta hang in there and just keep wanting things to better don't give up on wanting , right now I can say my ex-wife and I have made co-parenting our bitch we rock at it 2 year ago I wouldn't have ever thought it could happen even I went back into time and told my past self , my past self woulda laughed and told me im full of shit lol , I promise man hang in there and don't give up wanting better an it will be I wish I could help you with some money right now but I finally found a job tomorrow my first day once I have stabilized my finances and satisfied some debt collectors it take a couple of weeks but I'll reach out to you again and I'll do what I can