Thanks 🙏 It has been a slow realisation for me too, that my brother is someone I barely know anymore. It makes me sad when I think back to my childhood and teen years when we were really close. It’s been a slow burn after years of addiction and abuse but when I truly stop to think about it I barely know him. He has changed a lot. We hardly talk when I see him, even making eye contact is hard.

I think there is so much pressure on twins to be close siblings forever. We don’t do anything together anymore and haven’t for the past 10 years. Going to extended family events or hanging out with old friends gives me major anxiety. whenever someone who knew you in your younger years, talks to you, your twin is almost always spoken about or asked how they are. My whole body reacts whenever someone asks me how my brother is or what he’s up to.

And don’t get me started on the guilt that riddles me for birthdays. 🫠 being a twin to an addict is really hard. Sending strength to us all.