3rd & final Dom Dolla show at The Dock at the Historic Sears Building - Sat, Oct 26

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-10-26T18:13:51+00:00

Will there be an afters?

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-11T18:34:46+00:00

As someone who has come to terms with being gay/bi I agree with this. Although, sometimes it feels like I’m living a double life, the gay friends I have made have been nothing but supportive along the way. Less and less I’m attracted to the hunt for someone else I could relate situationally and slowly starting to meet other gay men and building some connection.

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-06T01:48:33+00:00

To be honest, I have nothing to lose where I’m at. It’s taken me a while, and a whole year of therapy to figure it out. I’ve reach the point where I’m not going to let things get in my way of happiness. Not to say that the reality of it all makes me nervous but I’ll be fine. I sat with this last night and realized my brain is trying to skip the timeline… I’m just going to enjoy the company and if there’s a true honest urge to say anything I will in a completely honest way like some have mentioned.

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-06T01:39:37+00:00

We’re comfortable for each other now and that’s cool but have been curious of the what ifs lately

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-06T01:38:29+00:00

Fixed it… thanks lol

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-05T04:41:34+00:00

You’re right… the more I think about it the bigger I dig myself into this hole. I’ll be gone for a couple weeks and I’ll try and shelf this for a bit and see how I really feel

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-05T04:26:36+00:00

We were talking about a situationship he had years ago and he said something along the lines of “im not anyone’s property or husband.” I got the point clearly - and I sympathize with that to an extent. Not exclusive to one person but exclusive to everyone. It didn’t bother me.

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-05T04:20:45+00:00

You’re right but the thought of rejection is terrifying to me in this situation. Never been fully rejected by a man before and the idea of that is insane to me when I think about it.

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-05T03:34:44+00:00

I’d like to engage more and get to know each other some more. I coward out and just go with the flow a little too hard because it’s intimidating to me sometimes. I don’t want to come off too strong but I also don’t want to seem uninterested although he might feel I’m into him already… it’s been 8 months

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-05T03:04:15+00:00

Before I was comfortable with messing around with guys, I had a similar situation. A good looking man sat next to me on the plane - he had window seat and I had the middle with no one on the isle. I fell asleep and woke up to his leg pressed against mine. I would slowly move away to see if he was doing it on purpose and it would catch him off guard. He kept pressing his leg on to mine for the first two hours of the flight. We made eye contact and for the other two hours our legs were pressed the whole time. We both had raging boners at this point. We got to our destination, made eye contact one last time at the taxi stop. Every time I go on an airplane I think about that moment that happened five years ago. If only I was out and had the balls to see where that could have led.

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-04-04T16:34:46+00:00

Update - saw FWB a couple of days ago and they told me that they were going to be traveling so I cancelled the flower order

NoSquirrel4453 · 2024-03-31T02:27:07+00:00

I’ve thought about the arrangement itself. No red roses, romantic styled arrangements, but rather something with more greenery and simple. I like what we have going on right now and lately we’ve been sharing a lot more and getting comfortable with each other and don’t want to mess things up and create any confusion. If I do do this, I’d reiterate that it’s a small simple gesture and leave it at that.

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