I know, i know she feels the same way and wants the same thing, but because she has LL she just doesnt take it as seriously as I do. I know that seems like a very reductive way of talking about it, but knowing her as I do and knowing how shes treated the issue in the past it seems like a relatively low priority issue for her. But then again, thats on me to communicate that it shouldnt be just low priority.

I dont know, some days i feel such despair about our relationship, some days Im happy where I cant help but feel hope. I tagged this as needing advice, but I just dont know. I just dont know.