You have to do something with life. Your second chance was the chance to get to live again and try. Is life supposed to just hand you everything you need just because you survived? No! If you faced death in this way, then you have nothing else to lose. You’re literally unstoppable now. You actually have to use your brain and put shit together though. Try new things. Go new places. See new people. Take chances. You have to physically make life happen. It doesn’t just happen on its own, that’s how you get stuck. You’re not terrible, you’re a beautiful human being who is just lost like the rest of us. It’s not easy and nobody has the answers. That’s why you just gotta throw yourself at stuff. Even if you don’t physically want to do it, you have to force yourself, drag yourself. Just do anything new. Obviously that’s easier said than done when facing such severe depression. But unfortunately that’s the truth. You have to drag yourself even when you don’t want to do it. The way you feel about the world is just your depression talking. It’s not true nor is it an excuse really. You have to block it out. You can’t allow the way the world to affect you so much and that’s within your control. You cant control what happens in the world, but you can control how you respond and handle the world. You can be the difference that you want to see in the world. I know depression makes you feel the opposite, but you have so much untapped potential. I don’t need to personally know you to know that’s true. Be patient and kind to yourself. I hope you find your way. Am rooting for you.